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Holla, I guess I've been away for pretty long. I found a job todayyyyyyy and it's kinda scary to be a newbie in your first job. On top of that, my first job is a....promoter. That's gonna be quite a challenge, I suppose? Now I've gotta up my persuading skills zomg. But I think things wouldn't be that bad once I get the hang of it.
Anyway, a million thanks to someone for accompanying me there, love you very much. At the same time, I'm really really sorry that your leave is wasted. ): ): ):

I have been rather busy so far - busy with going out, meet-ups etc. Last week's 2nd World-in-Singapore Concert was a blast. I loved most of the performances 'cause they were fabulous. Though Westwood Chorus didn't get much spotlight, I guess, my dear juniors, it's a good exposure for you guys. Continue to work hard in choir!

I have been hanging out with Cherminn pretty often nowadays too. Last week, we went to watch A Christmas Carol and I found the movie quite fine, but Cherminn didn't like it. Quite touching actually. We're planning to watch New Moon.

We also played badminton. It was so funny because Cherminn didn't seem to have very high determination to sustain an hour, hahaha. Alright, not like I'm saying I have very high determination. LOLZXZX. Then I went to her place for the first time. Again it was funny that I went to her house to eat something....
something very delicious and prestigious...

something magnificent...


.......INSTANT NOODLES. (specially cooked by Cherminn The Apprentice Chef)


So cool isn't it? HAHAHAHA. But you know what? I loved it. Because Cherminn cooked it. Hehehe. And I helped with washing the dishes. ^^

Prom is 2 days away and I'm not exactly excited about it, but I certainly hope it'd be a really memorable and enjoyable time for us all. (:


And oh yes by the way, I fell down just now. Cool?

No more of Higher Self today. It's me again.
No, wait, I guess there's no me anymore. I'm gone.
Though technically nothing has changed, it is no longer the same. I know I sound like some emo kid right here but this is the truth. "Truth is evil to the eye" - Yes, too evil.
But truth is not evil; truth is just being frank. Probably too blunt it hurts.

I am still thinking alot, and so are you. I'm contemplating. I'm waiting. I'm imagining. And it is so funny that I'm imagining the craziest thing ever. Here's what I imagined:

We were cycling at somewhere remote, I don't know where. You were way in front of me. I couldn't see you. I become half-frantic when you weren't in sight. The bike brought me down through the slope before I turned left to another road. The winds slapped violently against my unsmiling face, then in front of me I saw a van.

Then there came an adrenaline rush gushing through my head. I was in a daze. I let go of my brakes and let the wheel roll down the slope. "Sorry" was all my heart whispered before the climatic scene. I didn't close my eyes till I crashed into the van, like how a normal being would ordinarily do.

My forehead crashed into the side of the van, but that didn't feel painful - I was too numb. The bike then flung me up into the air; there, it felt as if time has come to a standstill and for a second, I thought I was flying. It wasn't even fear, but it was something else. Probably some kind of exhilaration. Momentarily, time started moving again, leaving me landed on the hard grounds of the road. I wasn't sure if I was bleeding anywhere but I laid unconscious.

The next thing I knew was I found myself in a hospital when I opened my eyes to see the silver light from the window. I saw you at my bedside. You held my hand. I flinched.

"Who are you?" I asked, nonchanlantly. You spoke of what happened in the previous episode, which I pretended not to remember. You told me who you are. You spoke of us, but I didn't want to remember. I pushed you away. I told you that you were annoying and irksome and I didn't want to see you anymore. I told you to get a life and move on. I told you to get out. True enough, you got out while I sat there on the bed, quite covered with tears. I remembered everything, everyone, except for you.

I intentionally made it that way.

Haha, so how do you like that? Sounds very much like some soap opera isn't it? But I do sometimes get shocked at how imaginative I can get, or maybe with a little sense of marvel. On the flipside, I actually don't know what I am writing. So you can forget about it. :)
I love Cherminn. Thanks Cherminn for being there for me, you're no doubt my very good buddy. And thanks for the omg-so-gay video, it was freaking hilarious. HAHAHA YAY BYE.

A small excerpt from New Moon:
"One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you"

I like this.
I'm still trying to change. Well you can walk out, you can.

Finally, after a long time, I ran.
I went running with my dad this morning instead of hiking due to the gloomy weather. Somehow the sky seems to know how to feel what I feel.. I don't know, it just felt that way. I appreciate it though.

I thought a lot today. Well I'm not saying I don't think on normal days but today's exceptional. Exceptionally contemplative. I couldn't sleep. I slept for short hours. Maybe I should really stop using "I" as a first person, or should I be using the Higher Self Speech? It'd sound less self-obsessed in that way, SHE suppose.
So she thought a lot, but it's no big deal 'cause it's the norm. Well, who doesn't?

She played host today, after donkey years/months later. Mars was the guest. Sweet.
She received a call from Mars today, telling her that she (Mars) wanted to borrow A math textbook from her. They met up at the bus stop. Mars wanted to go up to her house, so they went to her place. Her room was messy, no, actually is. She turned on her computer and sent songs to Mars email as requested and watched two videos. It was nice having Mars around yay.

Cherminn called her not too long ago and they talked quite alot as well.
Cherminn said something about: "Loving someone is not about wanting him/her to change to suit you, but it's about accepting him/her for the way he/she is"
Unfortunately...forget it.

She wished she was a little more tired. So she could sleep well. So she could sleep more. She guess it's alright. So she says goodbye. She loves Higher Self Speech.
(Hannan, if you happen to read this, you've gotta know she's giving you a credit)

It's a question from a quiz entitled to only one option, but somehow I don't know why I managed to choose three. (I'm lying, can't you see?)

Well it sure was quite a year.
And I guess I'll certainly miss choir, 4G, and oh yes, the days when some of us stayed till 8pm and compete to be the LAST STUDENT to leave Westwood for the day. Hahaha so dumb, but I like.
Monday was the last time for me. How saddddddddddd. Oh well, but the good thing is, I've officially graduatedddddddd. I can't safely say I'll definitely get into a desired institute of learning but I guess we can do now is to hope/pray for the best and expect the worst. (Azhar's line)
And to all pure science students whose papers end only this Friday: All the best & good luck for it! Have a good time on Friday! (:
In the meantime, I'll also be looking for a job. Frankly, I've never worked before in my entire life so I think it'll be good to gain some experience as a teenage apprentice.
Looks like I won't be free too. Oh well. Cheers anyway.

Papers have been pretty fine so far, I guess. Probably with the SS's source based questions which most of us found rather misleading. Shoosh. I hope and pray for the best.
O levels really do come and go very quickly; even before you know it, it is over. Now, I'm left with only one Science MCQ paper. Yay.
And after the O's, we officially need not wear the Westwood uniform anymore! Alright, probably with the exception of coming January 2010 when we get our results. Ahem. I hope I won't be the one crying. -_-
My life basically revolves around the exams for now, and I don't know what else I can talk about. Bwaha, alright anyway welcome to my boring blog. I hope you never enjoyed it.

The end.

I'm just kidding, can't you see? (:
(I pray hard for you too)

(Thanks for the cake, Ms Fong)
I wouldn't say life's been a bore, neither would I say it's been a thrill. It's a mixture of both...
Boring because it's exams, thrill because I've been staying back still 8pm every weekday in my second home called Westwood. Yes second home.

Pretty enjoyable actually, to be able to study properly and have occasional jokes with random peers. And oh yes, ah, the food of course. Okay that's not my main agenda of staying back but yeah, so happened that they provided refreshments for us. Muahaha.

The national exams are coming really fast; we're counting down days, less than two weeks. Yikes, I can feel the emergency already. Pretty sure many of us would feel the same as well, oh well.
Kudos to all of us, all the best people!

You too.


"Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror"