Someday, somewhere, somehow

2011-06-04T02:23:00.001+08:00

Here I am, once again, after such a long I am here.
Honestly I don't know what I'm here for, I can't get to sleep now. I'm awake with the pain of staying awake with lethargy that I could not sleep with. Along with chest pains and gastric pains.
Today my doctor told me that I should not lose anymore weight, but I guess at this rate..

I hate being jolted back to reality from sleep every morning. Why do I feel or see sunrise, why must I be awaken? Tell me why I've fallen out of love with life again. Tell me why am I me. Tell me ~~who~~ what am I.

And I especially hate it when..my tears run dry, when the heart yearns to cry.

2011-03-19T16:26:00.002+08:00

So this is how terrible feels like:

Having so much to feel, yet articulation fails.

2011-02-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

It all seems pretty easy nowadays to forget this place where I used to pour out my thoughts and all. It's also pretty amazing how I didn't touch this blog at all for the whole of January, 'cause it's like the New Year's month. Guess things really do change, and I really do change as well.
Today's the third day of Chinese New Year, and I've just counted the money I've collected this year. The amount is nothing like many of my friends' where they get hundreds and hundreds of dollars, but I'm contented all the same because nothing beats the time I can get together and catch up with my beloved cousins and all.
I guess I'm a happier person now..though at times I can be pretty melancholic with some unpleasant thoughts still lingering, the overall measurement of happiness is generally higher than before, so yes, be happy for me.
And most certainly, I hope everyone's happy, or even happier. I hope you're doing fine.

Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! :)

2010-12-31T20:50:00.001+08:00

It is officially the last day of 2010 and it's been a long time since I've last updated. Well I guess I hadn't had much mood to be thinking and talking about things like before, guess things have changed to the point where I chose to let things be unspoken. But well, I think there should be some turning point in the year 2011. For the better, I hope. Much as 2010 is considered "wasted" because I've ended up having to do one more year of JC1, but I think it could be a blessing in disguise because seriously, I can't imagine SYF in my JC2 year. I can die.

Let's just hope everything turns out for the better and I hope I'll be able to show more of my straight teeth (I've got my dad to thank) and less of tears. And oh yes, more bears please!!! I love my bear. Yay.

Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone (though I know no one really comes here to read anymore)! Have a blast :)

And Happy Birthday to whoever's having their birthdays.

2010-12-15T10:35:00.002+08:00

2010-10-20T18:01:00.001+08:00

Joan

"My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness."

- 2 Corinthians 12:9

2010-10-20T17:45:00.009+08:00

Dear Blog,

It is almost certain, that I've abandoned you. I haven't been speaking to you for months, and I admit I have quite forgotten you in my surge for success, happiness. I haven't had time nor breathing space to be thinking about you at all. I haven't been speaking like how I used to speak to you back when I was in my secondary school days. Or what I call, my Heydays.

Technically speaking, I shouldn't be remembering you at all even now, much less speaking to you, because of the things I have to attend to in my life that's sapping all the energy from me. But today, somehow something whispered to me "Hey, you still have someone there to hear you speak. It's right there, Ordinarilylived is there for you. It's there for you to help you maintain your sanity"

It is not to say that I'm losing my sanity, or I have lost my sanity..well, there were days I guess, I could feel everything whirling in my head, swaying me, perplexing my heart, my soul, my mind. I could feel myself going mad. I could feel myself hating things I should not be hating, falling out of love with life that I wished I was never born. That I was better off evanescent. I don't feel like I belong to this world.

Perhaps I might be sounding narcissistic in talking about "me" and "I" all the time. So sickening to be hearing me speak eh? LOL.

********
But guess what? I'm strong. No matter what come may, I am strong.
I tell this to myself that strong is my middle name and I shall not falter again. It is almost certain that I am a retainee, but no, I won't fall. Though the thought of leaving 10A03 is disheartening, I guess there has to be some price that I've to pay for what I've erred in my entire year. There has gotta be some compromise. And compromises? I have made too many. I can't afford to commit the same old mistakes anymore, not anymore.
And God shall lead me through wherever I am, He shall be in my life. I don't speak of Him to anyone else, but I speak to Him. Well I thank Him for giving me a strong mind, and for being with me through it all, even though at times I forget you. Forgive me, no one forgives as well as you do.

No more tears, no, I never had tears. Only water from my eyes.

2010-08-16T17:53:00.000+08:00

2010-08-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

"Maybe someday, someone will see that my speechlessness speaks so much more than he/she hears"

2010-07-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

Been ages since I've last left my trace here. Almost seems..evanescent?
Haven't been cool, like yeah so what if I've turned 17 I'm just one step closer to my grave. My results ain't cool as well and oh there was A level Chinese Listening comprehension and heck I think I screwed up some of the questions. I wish I can be playing God so I make changes to my script. I wish I never had any problems with myself. I wish I wish I wish.

I think I am suffering from some mental instability just like Antoinette in Wide Sargasso Sea with frequent uncontrolled flow of thoughts. Hell yeah I can draw parallels with myself and her, like staring into a looking-glass. Her life's a tragedy. My life's a mess. But I'll get it cleared..get it cleared..

2010-06-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

I hate the energy I've regained in me after a sleep. I hate it because I hate waking up to the sobriety that you are gone. It haunts me even when I try to get back to sleep again, and then keep waking up..to check my handphone what's the time and whether you're still asleep, checking whether you've texted me.

I cried the whole of yesterday. I cried because I made you depressed. I cried because I realised how much I mattered to you, that I could bring extreme happiness and sadness to you. I cried because I only realised how much I mattered to you only after we broke up. I cried because I regretted harbouring negative thoughts and attitude towards our relationship. I cried because I'm afraid that I cannot walk with you anymore, afraid that you'll have to walk this lonely path alone. I..really want you back.

Then again, I am thankful that you're still willing to talk to me. I'm holding on to hope. Hoping one day, perhaps..we can be together again someday, or soon. I want to walk the path with you, so please allow me to. Please take good care of yourself. I'll be waiting..

(and loving you).

2010-06-22T14:10:00.004+08:00

TRIBUTE TO A POET II

Did you ever notice the poet? The rhapsody who
sat at the park bench and
Rhapsodized about Life?

That power to write things alive,
make things alive,
make you alive

He can blow you away. I call him Mr. Poet.

Mr. Poet conducts lessons,
teaches people. Mr. Poet has a big heart. He cares.
He makes you understand,
realise,
learn. He is a
teacher who teaches lesson about Life

He'll make you thankful.

So did you notice the poet? Askin'
Because I have, and he went to take a stroll around the park
and I'll follow suit, 'cause he got me comin' back for more.

Let me celebrate him, and I'll do it twice, that is -
Now and Forever.

2010-06-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

I can't take another blow, because all these days proved to me that every second of this mess is more than I can take. It's the last chance and I know there's no letting go.
Even if it means hoping against hope, I would, because I refuse to believe that "Everything is transitory" is true. Perhaps someday I'll be the one who smiles radiantly at you and shines with bliss, perhaps someday I'll be the 'madwoman in the attic' screaming in delirium, perhaps someday I might appear on the news with headlines screaming that "A girl has died". No-one knows, but I'm certainly I'm in search of something. Perhaps, I guess, I'm just in search for something that hasn't quite existed.

Even when it feels like we have become a thread that's threatened to snap above the flames, I am still holding on. I guess I used to know what I'm holding on to, but I guess..not anymore. I'm just holding on to you.

2010-06-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

"Guys who blame himself for making you unhappy, gives in immediately when you pout your mouth, calls you back when you hangs up, claims that it's his fault when he didn't even do anything wrong, never think of anything else but how to treat you good, are good"

Is that so? I must have been a guy then. And I thought good people often come to no good end?
I'm the living example.

2010-06-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

Girl: My birthday..it doesn't matter.
Boy: Why?
Girl: Because I don't matter. Never did matter.

"I wish that my life ends quickly; so I can disappear right away from your life, so you can erase me from your memory. And find your rightful true happiness"

You were right - you're not happy with me. I am the curse of your life, therefore I should die. I should really die..because I never mattered to you, anyway.

2010-05-31T19:56:00.001+08:00

Please recover soon, please get well. Please God, make his fever go away. Help him get well soon. I can't stand seeing him suffer it's excruciating. Please.

Anyway, Happy (belated) 52nd Birthday to Mommy! Love you. (:

Happy 10th Month to us.

2010-05-28T21:24:00.002+08:00

Many a times, we wished today never existed.
Today..'today' haunts us all. It can never be yesterday, or tomorrow, because every time a day comes, it is today. I never wished I would be like this today. Or perhaps..I wished the 'today' in 4th July 1993 never existed - the day when the existent human beings celebrated my arrival in this world, or so I thought it was that way.
I didn't see that day worth celebrating for, neither do I see myself worth celebrating for. Because there simply wasn't anything to celebrate about. Because I don't matter.
I never knew how I've lived life, or how I got this far..16 years, going on 17. Maybe I didn't have a life at all. And today..when will I live through today? When will I be through with the act of breathing, the dreariness of eternity?

2010-05-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronise
Don't patronise me

'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
No you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

2010-05-25T14:03:00.000+08:00

As you stay stuck here on my mind,
I am here in the cafe of the campus -
Compelling worry builds up simultaneously in my heart, wondering
about how you are doing, how you are feeling.

2010-05-24T21:27:00.001+08:00

It is funny how things work in a peculiar fashion that you can never dream of.

(I miss you)

2010-05-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

I guess I've never felt this vulnerable before, or lost, or undervalued, or numb. I've been an utter loser.
I live in deception - trying to be someone I'm not, trying to do something I can't...the list goes on.
Nobody is there, nobody is ever there. I can't feel like I'm there anymore...or maybe, my heart has stopped beating.
Or it is too beat to be beating.
Sometimes I wished that when I close my eyes, I would stop breathing and never open my eyes to see the world again.
A house of cards in the pouring rain, a reckless ride in a hurricane.
This vulnerability...I guess it was all a vicious cycle, huh?
Kudos to me, I don't know who I am anymore.

Shall I question my worth?
Shall I question my reason for existence?
Or shall I stop questioning and just bid my blood to stop running?

2010-04-20T00:34:00.001+08:00

"So I lay my head back down, and I lift my hands and pray, to be only yours, I pray to be only yours, I know now, you're my only hope."

2010-04-19T19:25:00.002+08:00

2010-04-18T15:31:00.001+08:00

Destruction

She is not worthy.
Let her hurt you no more.

Her presence hurts, you.
She knows not to face you anymore
Sorry if she's been a sore

Pain.
Let it not crumble you any longer.
Time
Let it not pass you by anymore

She seeks and deserves no forgiveness,
deserves nothing more than nothing
for all she gave was nothing,
but

pain.

---------------------------------

pain nibble'd away her heart
to insanity, bewilderment, nothingness...

At her sobriety,
She knows she loves you.

yet simply knew nothing to do it - right.

2010-04-03T21:21:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I have stopped believing.
But I can't believe in anything that I have never imagined myself believing in, or have forgotten what I've believed in.

Maybe I have forgotten. Forgotten the true meaning of smiling, of being hungry, of being tired, of being in pain, of breathing.

Maybe I have lost myself along the way, threw myself into the lost sea - that when I look into the looking-glass, I can't see who I am anymore: the sullen pale face of wretched life, the one who has lost the fundamentals of living.

Back to basics: Believing. Remembering. Smiling. Feeling. Breathing. Living.

2010-03-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

Spellings of "busy"

Busy.
Buzy.
Bu-zee.
Bu-zy.
Bee-sy.
Bees-zy
Bee-zy.
Bee-zee.
Bee-zeeeeeeeeee.
Beez-eeeee.
Bi-sy.
Bis-zy.
Bi-zy.
Bi-zee.
Biz-sy
Biz-zee.
Biz-zeeeeee.
Biz-zzeeeeee.

Hell yeah I don't know what I'm typing.

2010-03-05T22:24:00.002+08:00

I am not surprised if there isn't anybody who bothers to come here to read anymore because this site is getting boring. I haven't had time to go online and update. Welcome.

Life in JC so far has been fine - not quite. It's a big gap from O levels and assignments and tests are starting to kick in. And I have this fear: this fear of the possibility of being retained at the end of the year. It's a scary prospect. And to know that I have failed my first (GP) test of the year even before I get it back, it's not a very encouraging starting point. But things will get better.

On the flipside, my class' (10A03) been really awesome and damn I love this class the most. Tickling people like May En (EnEn), Yan Ting (YanYan), Joanne (JoJo), Gayaatri (Gaia) and many other people have seemed to become part of my daily ritual to extend their lifespans through laughter and shock. Damn I love this. Theme: While We live, We learn. LOL!

Choir's been pretty fun too. We've been working on our upcoming concert in May and we're progressing pretty well.Yay.

On Wednesday, I decided to drop by Westwood for a short visit. I went in to check out on choir too. It's relieving to see them progressing relatively well, keep it up my juniors! Ms Chen's tummy is definitely much bigger than the last time I saw her in January, I can't wait to see her baby being born! Lol. Well JC and secondary choir is really different; in secondary choir, we have our teachers to spoonfeed us, but in JC, we're much more independent and we get most of the things done on our own. I really miss Mr Goh's Golden Teachings and philosophies a lot though, oh well...

In a nutshell, things haven't been going really smoothly in my life. Well who says it'd be anyway? But sometimes...I really just wished I had met with some accident or something. Kudos to me and I shall take my bow. PW is waiting for me.

I celebrate myself.

2010-02-07T18:29:00.009+08:00

HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY,

AUNTIE

LILY (27TH JANUARY)!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

AUNTIE

SHIRLEY (2NDFEBRUARY)!

30th January's birthday gathering was pretty awesome because it was really nice to be able to catch up with my dear cousies and uncles and aunties after a long long long long time. (:
And I was out of my mind, I actually wore my prom dress again...simply because at the back of my head I was thinking "Since I've only wore that once, I'd wear it another time. Don't waste it"
So I wore it. But this time, I wore a belt. Which I thought made the overall outlook slightly better, ahem.
And we took quite a number of photos, of which the ones from my lousy Nokia phone alone are not enough to sophisticate this blog/my Facebook enough. So I guess I'll just wait for some of my relatives to tag me in the photos when they upload to Facebook muahaha!

Meanwhile, peeeeektures shall dominate this post.

Overall PJ's been great and I think I like it there, especially the awesome people (:
I'll miss MG14 so so so much! Arghhhhhhhhhh.
And by tomorrow I'll know my class, looking forward to it. Lol. Okays byeeeeeee.

2010-01-28T22:21:00.006+08:00

"If tomorrow takes me away, what would you do today?"

A whole new chapter - Pioneer Junior College

2010-01-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

Be happy, perhaps?

2010-01-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

2010-01-23T23:39:00.003+08:00

2010-01-21T23:01:00.000+08:00

Guess I really have got nothing much to say. Anyway, I've placed a Twitter section on this blog.
Yawns.

2010-01-15T00:35:00.010+08:00

About 2 days ago, I was on MSN with Shan Heng, and he wants me to post something. So here goes.

ShanHeng:
How's the result?
Me:
haha mine was freaking hilarious
ShanHeng:
why.
Me:

straight B3s for all 7 subs i took
wth lol
ShanHeng:
got 15?
lol
power
Me:
so you can conveniently calculate my score
ya lah wth
i've never dreamt of such a thing
ShanHeng:
but at least you got what you want ma
Me:

15 for r4
18 for r5
bad bad bad
ShanHeng:
still okay laaa
Me:
well not neccesarily though
i might end up in ijc

even though i wanna go to pjc
LOL
ShanHeng:
can go pjc what
no merh?
Me:
err minus off cca then can

cos cop is 16...don't know lah
ShanHeng:
can de larh
no problem
pjc no aircon!
ijc

the princiapl is jj ex principal
MR KOH
Favourite phrase
I will fire you!
Me:
LOL good anot?
hahahaa
ShanHeng:
Favourite activity: catching guys who are standing too near girls, must be one arm's length apart

Favourite morning activity: Make a long long speech. By which i meant repeating matters that he had said again and again
There you have it!
hahash. okay larh not bad
Me:
HAHAHAHA
sounds abit like betty chow for the 2nd one
ShanHeng:
NO kidding wo xD
Me:
the first one is a first...classic

HAHAHAHAHA
ShanHeng:
OOOLLOL
Me:
but it's good la, guys and girls keep a distance away from each other
ShanHeng:
seriously.. that is not good
ShenHeng:
Sent an ink message:

ShanHeng:
TOO CLOSE
Me:
HAHAHAHA
NICE
ShanHeng:
Sent an ink message:

Me:
then in class leh? zzz -_-
ShanHeng:
ACCEPTABLE
LOL
Class? If he comes in then GG
Me:
haha wth very funny leh i wanna laugh
ShanHeng:
Walao youx.x
Okay larh i go study le. you keep laughing
Me:
HAHAHAHA
ShanHeng:
I know you are still bullying poor twinkle!
Me:

okay la i don't laugh le
no la i treat her very well de
ShanHeng:
MAI LIE
Me:
she's still as chubby as before
and she loves me
ShanHeng:
If twinkle is treated wellwell..
THEN WHERE IS STAR?
Me:
above you la
LOLS
ShanHeng:
XD
okay larh. i go liao
Jiayousssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

AND BLOG WHAT I SAID TO YO

ShanHeng:	How's the result?
Me:	haha mine was freaking hilarious
ShanHeng:	why.
Me:	straight B3s for all 7 subs i took wth lol
ShanHeng:	got 15? lol power
Me:	so you can conveniently calculate my score ya lah wth i've never dreamt of such a thing
ShanHeng:	but at least you got what you want ma
Me:	15 for r4 18 for r5 bad bad bad
ShanHeng:	still okay laaa
Me:	well not neccesarily though i might end up in ijc
	even though i wanna go to pjc LOL
ShanHeng:	can go pjc what no merh?
Me:	err minus off cca then can
	cos cop is 16...don't know lah
ShanHeng:	can de larh no problem pjc no aircon! ijc
	the princiapl is jj ex principal MR KOH Favourite phrase I will fire you!
Me:	LOL good anot? hahahaa
ShanHeng:	Favourite activity: catching guys who are standing too near girls, must be one arm's length apart
	Favourite morning activity: Make a long long speech. By which i meant repeating matters that he had said again and again There you have it! hahash. okay larh not bad
Me:	HAHAHAHA sounds abit like betty chow for the 2nd one
ShanHeng:	NO kidding wo xD
Me:	the first one is a first...classic
	HAHAHAHAHA
ShanHeng:	OOOLLOL
Me:	but it's good la, guys and girls keep a distance away from each other
ShanHeng:	seriously.. that is not good
ShenHeng:	Sent an ink message:

Me:	then in class leh? zzz -_-
ShanHeng:	ACCEPTABLE LOL Class? If he comes in then GG
Me:	haha wth very funny leh i wanna laugh
ShanHeng:	Walao youx.x Okay larh i go study le. you keep laughing
Me:	HAHAHAHA
ShanHeng:	I know you are still bullying poor twinkle!
Me:	okay la i don't laugh le no la i treat her very well de
ShanHeng:	MAI LIE
Me:	she's still as chubby as before and she loves me
ShanHeng:	If twinkle is treated wellwell.. THEN WHERE IS STAR?
Me:	above you la LOLS
ShanHeng:	XD okay larh. i go liao Jiayousssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
	AND BLOG WHAT I SAID TO YO

There you go. See you people soon. (:

2010-01-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

Erm, where the heck am I looking at? -_-

Mars! What's with that sullen face? Was it so miserable taking a shot with me??? LOLSSSSSS.

My lovely Jaslyn Kohhhh!!! :D

Doggggggy.

Shhhh, my bear's sleeping. Don't peep at her butt! LOL!

Above are some random photos I've uploaded. I find some of them pretty cute, ahaha. Enjoy! Anyway I've submitted my 12 choices.

2010-01-10T19:56:00.011+08:00

It is really nice to see yourself picking up the pen and pencils to write something again after a long time, though it may feel kind of weird.
It is really great to be doing (or teaching) math again so long after completing the O's.
It feels really gladdening to know that you totally rock another person's world and she's gonna miss you and she loves you and has faith in you. Thanks a whole lot my lovely Xinxin, I hope you see this. I'm gonna miss you alot too. (:

Well this afternoon I received a forwarded sms which helped us countdown 26 hours to O level results, and I thought that'd make us kinda more stress? LOL. Now it's already about 18 hours and 46 mins (now being 8.14pm) to the release. I'm not going to say I hope I get how many points and below or anything because nothing in the result slip is gonna change now. Guess we all just need a drip of the anti-anxiety potion.

Maybe for now spending time with some tertiary institutions' websites would help in filling up the 12 choices. Que sera sera.

2010-01-10T02:03:00.000+08:00

Quite a few hours back, I've been to quite a number of Polytechnics' open houses. Republic poly, Singapore poly, Ngee Ann poly. And on Thursday it was Temasek poly. Didn't get to go to Nanyang poly, aww. But anyway so far the open houses are pretty fine, kinda interesting too. Heh.

I've been bloghopping and I can see a number people posting about their fears about the upcoming release of O level results. Truth to be told, I didn't actually bother much till 1st Jan 2010 came and I went "Shit, it's 2010 results ahhhhh!!" -_- And as the days past, the stress seem to have snowballed from the size of a little marble to the size of...I don't know, a rolling hot air balloon maybe? Facebook's comments, friends' frantic...I think this is a sign to tell me to be afraid as well. Yet as a matter-of-fact, I'm already afraid. Well, frankly, who doesn't?

I think I can forget about getting a good night's sleep tomorrow night. I bet a handful of my peers would be this way too, so I guess I'll see many pandas around soon enough on Results day.

Another shit popped up today when our very nice SingTel delivered their prestigious Scroll of PhoneBills to inform me and my family (especially my dad) of the $55.46 that I've spent for the month of December 2009, telling me that I've exceeded my free outgoing calls and free smses. I've gotta pay that myself for this with my pathetic salary from last year December as a MioTV promoter, which wasn't much a large sum of 'kaching' to begin with anyway, yikes. But anyway, sorry dad for the past few months. And thanks alot SingTel. Oh I dread SingTel bills now.

I saw Mun Ling at Causeway Point today! She was doing her CIP for flag day, how coincidental! And I've finally returned her the pair of pants. Sorry Mun Ling for holding onto it for so long! Well it's a long time since I've seen her and I miss her zomg. All the way for O's girl! (I know you probably won't get to see this but here's what I'm wishing for you anyway)

Well, I do miss some other people too...people like you, you, you, you, you and you (juniors, seniors, peers, teachers, ex-colleagues etc). [:
Tell me I'm fair 'cause I didn't mention names! (lol)

All the best to all O level students on Monday; Jesus, Buddha, Allah and Vishnu will be present too, to play 'Daidi'. (according to Elton's Facebook profile) HAHAHA NICE. GOODNIGHT.

2010-01-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

Well I guess it doesn't matter that I feel anything. Not anymore.
Something's coming. 11th January, 2pm.

Amen.

2010-01-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
It's 2010 nowwwwwwwwww. Yesterday's countdown was rather boring because I didn't get to go to somewhere crowded like Marina and it was 31st yesterday but I didn't get to celebrate another event...

(Happy 5th month)

Shoosh, O level results is like less than 2 weeks away. Yikes, I'm sure I won't be able to sleep the day before of the release of the O's. LOL.
Anyway I went towning with Mars todayyyyyyyyy and it was greatttt. Well not exactly 'cause I didn't buy anything for myself at all. She was richer so she bought more, and my legs were screaming they're tired. HAHA.

It's someone's 21st birthday tomorrow and we don't know where to go. I hope tomorrow will turn out well. Happy 21st Birthday to you!!!♥♥♥

Meanwhile, I'm gonna get a job to earn a little money. So really, thanks alot Weihan for introducing the job to me! (though it's not quite confirmed yet) He's a friend I knew from the X'mas and New year's countdown so cheers.

Yuppies, so goodnight to all. Whoo.

2009-12-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

Well, belated one actually.
I've been quite lazy in blogging recently, and I've been dying to upload the photos from Hainan, but didn't quite have the mood to. Now that I wanna do it, it's soooo many that I get sick of uploading them. Trust me, I'm still uploading it. On Facebook only, I think. I think I'll upload the very awesome video on Photobucket or Flickr or something. Rawrrrr.

Anyway, the trip to Hainan was...pretty memorable. We left Singapore not from Terminal 1, 2 or 3, but...BUDGET TERMINAL. I didn't even know Budget Terminal existed till 18th December 2009! How interesting! I'll also never forget that on the plane, the China Health Declaration card called us (foreigners) "Aliens". It's freakin' freakin' funny, right Mommy? (:

Argh I don't know what I wanna blog about anymore so this is the end. Zzz.

2009-12-17T19:09:00.002+08:00

These few days have been great! Okay, not really. But good enough.

Anyway this will be my last post before I go to Cheeeeeeeena in the middle of the night. I wonder how Haikou will be like, hopefully it'll be fun.
And when I think of the name Haikou, I have a tendency to call it "Haigou", which means seal. Yes, the one you see in the ocean. Lol. I'll only be back on 22 December.

So within these few days, to all friends who have my mobile phone number, please do not SMS me or call me, (alright, not like you really want or care to contact me either I know but yeah lol)unless you wanna be paying for the overseas telecommunication service. Muahaha.

I'll miss you guys, and you too. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-12-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

I'm done and over with being a sales promoter of mioTV/mioHome and today was officially my last day. Though the job may not be easy, I've nevertheless learned a great deal from the experience. Well, come to think of it, which job is easy?

I wouldn't say I've been a good promoter of the company since I've gotten quite a number of zeroes. Some may say I'm not suitable for this job, I'm not a sales-kind-of-person, this job sucks...but no, I kind of like the challenge. This is my first job and I'll never forget the zeroes I've got, the countless number of uninterested souls who passed me by, my umpteen attempts to approach/interest people with the product, my failed attempts to get them to sign the contract, my successful ones, my awesome colleagues, my humorous and helpful manager(s), the people from AppCo, the Chinese stallholder in front of our booth in CCK who talked to me alot and gave me a discount...many things.

On the first day of work, I was paired off with a sweet girl called Mun Ling and helped me close 2 deals. Thanks alot, Mun Ling! On the second day, we both worked together again and we had zero sales. Third day I was alone and I got zero. These three days I worked in Yishun, and it became quite boring. In between, somehow I got quite alot of off-days so I began working again only on Friday. They changed some strategies and we actually worked in a team. There were Mun Ling, Yuet Cheng and myself. Yuet Cheng was the only one who managed to get 1 sale. I tried hard but I got none. Friday I didn't get any pay because the pay structure changed to a fully-commission based type.

My manager, Keller, once said

"In salesmanship, one of the most important thing is to be consistent"

And guess what, I was consistent...Consistently getting zero. LOL.
Today, miraculously, I've got a total of 8 sales. But wait wait wait, chill, let me explain. I closed 2 sales on my own, while the other 5 was contributed by my manager. Then the other sale was contributed by my another manager (Brendan) who happened to pop by. And all the sales went to me 'cause they don't get commission for selling those products...
Really thanks a million to my managers who've helped me so much, especially Keller. You've been a great boss, really (:

I'll really miss my colleagues and my boss(es)...people like Mun Ling, Yuet Cheng, Thomas, Chee Yang. And thanks Uncle (I don't know his surname or anything but he has a stall at cck too) for all the things you've taught me.

"Today is your breakthrough. Once you've overcome this barrier, this barrier will not come back to you anymore, but there'll be many other obstacles that you'll need to overcome"

I'll remember that. I'll also remember the friendly AppCo people who taught me some things as well.
Looks like I'm being quite naggy today and I've been rambling on and on about my Mio Experience. I hope I get to learn more things when I get a new job...hopefully as a waitress. It'll be another feat again, yay. So that's all folks! :D

2009-11-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez, Jonas Brothers - Send It On

I love the lyrics.

2009-11-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

Holla, I guess I've been away for pretty long. I found a job todayyyyyyy and it's kinda scary to be a newbie in your first job. On top of that, my first job is a....promoter. That's gonna be quite a challenge, I suppose? Now I've gotta up my persuading skills zomg. But I think things wouldn't be that bad once I get the hang of it.
Anyway, a million thanks to someone for accompanying me there, love you very much. At the same time, I'm really really sorry that your leave is wasted. ): ): ):

I have been rather busy so far - busy with going out, meet-ups etc. Last week's 2nd World-in-Singapore Concert was a blast. I loved most of the performances 'cause they were fabulous. Though Westwood Chorus didn't get much spotlight, I guess, my dear juniors, it's a good exposure for you guys. Continue to work hard in choir!

I have been hanging out with Cherminn pretty often nowadays too. Last week, we went to watch A Christmas Carol and I found the movie quite fine, but Cherminn didn't like it. Quite touching actually. We're planning to watch New Moon.

We also played badminton. It was so funny because Cherminn didn't seem to have very high determination to sustain an hour, hahaha. Alright, not like I'm saying I have very high determination. LOLZXZX. Then I went to her place for the first time. Again it was funny that I went to her house to eat something....
something very delicious and prestigious...

something magnificent...

.......INSTANT NOODLES. (specially cooked by Cherminn The Apprentice Chef)

So cool isn't it? HAHAHAHA. But you know what? I loved it. Because Cherminn cooked it. Hehehe. And I helped with washing the dishes. ^^

Prom is 2 days away and I'm not exactly excited about it, but I certainly hope it'd be a really memorable and enjoyable time for us all. (:

And oh yes by the way, I fell down just now. Cool?

2009-11-15T18:55:00.006+08:00

No more of Higher Self today. It's me again.
No, wait, I guess there's no me anymore. I'm gone.
Though technically nothing has changed, it is no longer the same. I know I sound like some emo kid right here but this is the truth. "Truth is evil to the eye" - Yes, too evil.
But truth is not evil; truth is just being frank. Probably too blunt it hurts.

I am still thinking alot, and so are you. I'm contemplating. I'm waiting. I'm imagining. And it is so funny that I'm imagining the craziest thing ever. Here's what I imagined:

We were cycling at somewhere remote, I don't know where. You were way in front of me. I couldn't see you. I become half-frantic when you weren't in sight. The bike brought me down through the slope before I turned left to another road. The winds slapped violently against my unsmiling face, then in front of me I saw a van.

Then there came an adrenaline rush gushing through my head. I was in a daze. I let go of my brakes and let the wheel roll down the slope. "Sorry" was all my heart whispered before the climatic scene. I didn't close my eyes till I crashed into the van, like how a normal being would ordinarily do.

My forehead crashed into the side of the van, but that didn't feel painful - I was too numb. The bike then flung me up into the air; there, it felt as if time has come to a standstill and for a second, I thought I was flying. It wasn't even fear, but it was something else. Probably some kind of exhilaration. Momentarily, time started moving again, leaving me landed on the hard grounds of the road. I wasn't sure if I was bleeding anywhere but I laid unconscious.

The next thing I knew was I found myself in a hospital when I opened my eyes to see the silver light from the window. I saw you at my bedside. You held my hand. I flinched.

"Who are you?" I asked, nonchanlantly. You spoke of what happened in the previous episode, which I pretended not to remember. You told me who you are. You spoke of us, but I didn't want to remember. I pushed you away. I told you that you were annoying and irksome and I didn't want to see you anymore. I told you to get a life and move on. I told you to get out. True enough, you got out while I sat there on the bed, quite covered with tears. I remembered everything, everyone, except for you.

I intentionally made it that way.

Haha, so how do you like that? Sounds very much like some soap opera isn't it? But I do sometimes get shocked at how imaginative I can get, or maybe with a little sense of marvel. On the flipside, I actually don't know what I am writing. So you can forget about it. :)
I love Cherminn. Thanks Cherminn for being there for me, you're no doubt my very good buddy. And thanks for the omg-so-gay video, it was freaking hilarious. HAHAHA YAY BYE.

A small excerpt from New Moon:
"One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you"

I like this.

I'm still trying to change. Well you can walk out, you can.

2009-11-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

Finally, after a long time, I ran.
I went running with my dad this morning instead of hiking due to the gloomy weather. Somehow the sky seems to know how to feel what I feel.. I don't know, it just felt that way. I appreciate it though.

I thought a lot today. Well I'm not saying I don't think on normal days but today's exceptional. Exceptionally contemplative. I couldn't sleep. I slept for short hours. Maybe I should really stop using "I" as a first person, or should I be using the Higher Self Speech? It'd sound less self-obsessed in that way, SHE suppose.
So she thought a lot, but it's no big deal 'cause it's the norm. Well, who doesn't?

She played host today, after donkey years/months later. Mars was the guest. Sweet.
She received a call from Mars today, telling her that she (Mars) wanted to borrow A math textbook from her. They met up at the bus stop. Mars wanted to go up to her house, so they went to her place. Her room was messy, no, actually is. She turned on her computer and sent songs to Mars email as requested and watched two videos. It was nice having Mars around yay.

Cherminn called her not too long ago and they talked quite alot as well.
Cherminn said something about: "Loving someone is not about wanting him/her to change to suit you, but it's about accepting him/her for the way he/she is"
Unfortunately...forget it.

She wished she was a little more tired. So she could sleep well. So she could sleep more. She guess it's alright. So she says goodbye. She loves Higher Self Speech.
(Hannan, if you happen to read this, you've gotta know she's giving you a credit)

2009-11-12T17:12:00.003+08:00

It's a question from a quiz entitled to only one option, but somehow I don't know why I managed to choose three. (I'm lying, can't you see?)

2009-11-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

O LEVELS ARE OVERRR!!!!!! (for me)

Well it sure was quite a year.
And I guess I'll certainly miss choir, 4G, and oh yes, the days when some of us stayed till 8pm and compete to be the LAST STUDENT to leave Westwood for the day. Hahaha so dumb, but I like.
Monday was the last time for me. How saddddddddddd. Oh well, but the good thing is, I've officially graduatedddddddd. I can't safely say I'll definitely get into a desired institute of learning but I guess we can do now is to hope/pray for the best and expect the worst. (Azhar's line)
And to all pure science students whose papers end only this Friday: All the best & good luck for it! Have a good time on Friday! (:
In the meantime, I'll also be looking for a job. Frankly, I've never worked before in my entire life so I think it'll be good to gain some experience as a teenage apprentice.
Looks like I won't be free too. Oh well. Cheers anyway.

2009-11-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

Papers have been pretty fine so far, I guess. Probably with the SS's source based questions which most of us found rather misleading. Shoosh. I hope and pray for the best.
O levels really do come and go very quickly; even before you know it, it is over. Now, I'm left with only one Science MCQ paper. Yay.
And after the O's, we officially need not wear the Westwood uniform anymore! Alright, probably with the exception of coming January 2010 when we get our results. Ahem. I hope I won't be the one crying. -_-
My life basically revolves around the exams for now, and I don't know what else I can talk about. Bwaha, alright anyway welcome to my boring blog. I hope you never enjoyed it.

The end.

I'm just kidding, can't you see? (:
(I pray hard for you too)

2009-10-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MRS BETTY CHOW!

(Thanks for the cake, Ms Fong)
I wouldn't say life's been a bore, neither would I say it's been a thrill. It's a mixture of both...
Boring because it's exams, thrill because I've been staying back still 8pm every weekday in my second home called Westwood. Yes second home.

Pretty enjoyable actually, to be able to study properly and have occasional jokes with random peers. And oh yes, ah, the food of course. Okay that's not my main agenda of staying back but yeah, so happened that they provided refreshments for us. Muahaha.

The national exams are coming really fast; we're counting down days, less than two weeks. Yikes, I can feel the emergency already. Pretty sure many of us would feel the same as well, oh well.
Kudos to all of us, all the best people!

You too.

"Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror"

2009-10-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

Exams are coming in three weeks' plus time. There's not much time left.
In a few hours' time, all graduating classes will be strutting down the aisle of the hall and going through the graduation ceremony. How time flies eh?
However, we'll still be coming back for Mock Exams next week. And very (un)fortunately, I will have it for the whole week - every single day. I don't mind though, I need practice anyway. Ha.
Alright, let me just end here with a pathetically short post.

Words have dissolved. here comes goodbye. For now, for this post.

Been two months. Are we still strong?

2009-09-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

Picking up from setbacks have never been easy, let alone despondency. I solemnly admit I was wallowing in despair practically for the whole day, no, since yesterday and lived my life as a phantom who merely sought refuge in long hours of studying. A phantom who occasionally breaks down for various reasons. A phantom whose heart bleeds profusely when inflicted.

It wasn't easy to pick myself up again from a setback, and certainly, it was easy to smile again as well until towards the later part of the day. Special thanks to Chinming for studying with me for the past two days, it's been good to have a study-buddy. Chinming happened to be my friend from primary school, but we didn't talk much then. Hah.

Just as I began to feel better, I thought I could stay this way for the rest of my night till I fall asleep. Yet, things didn't turn out this way. I feel like I am like a loser right now, for I am only capable of bringing upon hurt to another, and only capable of getting hurt by another. It was never my intention to mess things up, but it just had to be like that. It seems like I am just doing wrong over and over again, when I painstakingly try to avoid saying the wrong things yet I am still not good enough - this is enervating, excruciating. Something which was...more than I can take.

Perhaps we are all too tired. Too tired to talk, too tired to think, too tired to feel. Probably that was why things have gone so wrong; I was not that strong. Maybe I should've known better to put up a good audio show, should've known better to have sound happy, at the least.

Congratulations to you.

2009-09-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

It is really funny how I am addicted to Wikipedia (?) these few days. Sounds ridiculous, isn't it? Well, I don't know. I was reading up on alot of things related to singers, facets of religion, fictions, mythical characters like werewolves, vampires (-_-), paleontology, countries, languages etc etc etc. I know this sounds crazy but I do kind of enjoy reading up these stuffs and I do get carried away. Opps.
But well, I guess I should really be reading up things that are within my curriculum for now, since O levels is just round the corner instead of all these irrelevant things? Argh, you're contradicting yourself Joan! Oookay just for yesterday and today, Joany. You've gotta start mugging. You need to do well. Have faith in yourself.
And you, yes you. I have absolute faith in you, and I am certain you'll do very well. Have more faith in yourself, because "Faith trusts and needs itself more than anything else faith thinks it needs to stay alive".

Have you ever found yourself being out of place? And you don't seem to quite fit in? When all along you've been good, yet you go unnoticed, or even, unseen when another who isn't as sensible as you all this while yet gets all the deserving treatment the moment he speaking? Your words are then unheard? Or better off unspoken? Do you get forgotten? Then get remembered again when you are inescapably seen after all the others are well-attended to? And whether you are remembered, or even, recalled or not, it doesn't matter anymore? Are you disconcerted? Or do you shrug it off and simply forget? And you just move on, without wondering whoever cares about it?

Perhaps I should've known better to get used to this. Perhaps it's just a random emotion. School, home...somehow they're pretty homogeneous in terms of reign and rights. The ones more favoured get more favours, and maybe, rights. Should've known better.

Still, things aren't all that pessimistic to know that there are people/is somebody out there for me. I guess that is more than enough...right? (:

It is 12.36am right now, but I don't seem to feel very tired yet. Maybe it's because of the late dinner I've had just now that is keeping me awake. Tomorrow is public holiday, but I don't think I am going anywhere since exams are still not over. GO BURN, PROCRASTINATION!!!!!!!!

2009-09-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Saturday, cool air.
Tuition was good today, just that I was slightly tired. But I'm so happy because for every later half of my session I get to sit beside myself! LOL! Okay no, not myself of course, but another person who's also called Joan. Indeed, it is a small world. She's Joan Ong and I'm Joan Tong, with a surname of one-letter difference, hahaha. Hello Joany! :D
Actually, we first met last Saturday. It is really funny to be teaching a peer some wrong things but got saved in the end by Peterman (?!).Yupyup.

(it's 12.40am now)
Erm alright, actually I was supposed to publish this post but somehow I didn't get to. I don't know why.
Was watching Van Helsing just now on Channel 5 and it was really good! Suspenseful, action-packed...somehow a gothic beauty like Kate Beckinsale is always related to werewolves and vampires which I think they match pretty impeccably. Isn't it? Yup.

Anyway, here's something random.

Me: hmm, what were you reading then? was the book nice? [:
Anon: nice..e author is tasty

Hahaha, I just found that "author is tasty" hilarious, I don't know why. Maybe I'm on a tickling row today. I told you I was random!

And I'll randomly say goodnight to all for now. Random hellos with random goodbyes.

2009-09-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

Alright, so here goes. I've changed my layout after so long, like finally? This skin is entirely made of brushes...oh well they're pretty random huh. Previously, I locked my blog for a while to find out a "cure" for my messed-up layout. I've been spending hours and hours trying to find out what went wrong, and it just turned out that my previous post was the root of all problems: incomplete tags, I suppose. To think I even thought of changing my blog, yikes. But oh well, all's well that ends well. Just, maybe.

Anyway, life's been...a drama. From mugging to sitting for papers, to going home, to getting lectured by parents, to laughing at silly family jokes, to talking on the phone, to crying, to smiling. Maybe a little too much of drama, I suppose. Somehow I don't feel settled or disciplined enough - and this is worrying. I am worrying for myself (and someone else).
Here's a note to self. Okay Joan, here's your reality: The 'O'-em-gee is coming in a month's time and you are failing subjects you shouldn't be failing. Snap yourself back here and buckle up!

I dined out with my family just now, and I wouldn't say it was totally pleasant per se. Fragment of events and nouns: Me. Last minute. Mom. Blaming. Unsmiling. Dumb. Speechless. That's all.
But when we were on the car, bro and I created quite a number of innovative antitheses like

"I'LL STARVE YOU WITH FOOD!"
"Argh, it's too bright in this dark room!"
"I sell things with money"

We created some others too, but I think this is all I can recall for now. When we got back home, bro showed me some MAD TV videos on YouTube that made me laugh my head off. HAHAHA, especially the Survivor Cook Islands. Perhaps some of you might seen this before but I'm still gonna post it here anyway:

"Continual Blatant Stereotype" LOL AT IT.
The other one was Weight Smasher where it's extremly corny, in fact, too corny that I don't wanna put it up here. You guys can search on YouTube if you want to, bwahaha (:

Enjoy, and that's all folks!
I wished I'm the one who's unwell O':

2009-09-09T20:39:00.001+08:00

September now. 090909, how nice eh?
I've been well, I suppose. Monday's video-shooting was pretty funny, though it was pretty draggy. It was for our graduation day. Man, I think I'll miss 4G, good buddies and juniors a whole lot once I graduate. I wonder if anyone would miss me, at all? Hah. Graduate, paper chase, we'll get out of this place

Being Tuesday yesterday, where it was coincidentally a family day, we went to have lunch and went shopping at the supermarket. We even planned to go to the Chinese Swimming Club for a swim, but didn't in the end due to some complications. Forget about it.

And as for today, I felt quite constructive/useful: I went hiking with my dad in the morning, then had a straight 3-hour math tuition in the afternoon. But before I went for my tuition, daddy did fetch me to school to get my Lit Mock exam papers. And I did shit for it. -_-
Oh yes, not forgetting the tormenting blisters above my heels that I got from the hike. I swear I was having a miserable time walking in those shoes for another minute. I don't know how or why, last time when I wore that pair of shoes, it wasn't painful or whatsoever. Oh well.

But the pain is certainly lessen now, by an all-time effective medicine. Yup. (:

Ermmm, alright I think I gotta go now. Needa sleep now. Goodnight, love you all mortals!
Love you too.

2009-08-31T21:17:00.001+08:00

No lessons today.
Started off with a little stoning session early in the morning without reading materials. Then there was this ACES thing; it was hard to see what the instructor was doing at the back. I don't quite get those actions, but there's this one action that stays quite fresh in most of our minds I'm sure: the crude action of....
Alright, I don't think I can really describe how the action was, but all I could say that it was pretty crude, yet funny, especially when I turn over and saw how the action was hilariously edited by people from other classes. Was so hilarious that I couldn't stop laughing. HAHA.
And for Teachers' Day celebrations, the whole school cohort assembled at the hall. This year's sec 2s/SCs did a pretty good job in emceeing, I must say. So keep it up, juniors! (though at times it's cheesy, it's rather entertaining) Performances put up were good, and so were we. (even if I say so myself lol)
We were dismissed considerably early today, but some of us had to stay back for a 4G dance video. And I was one of them. Well, I've never been a natural at dancing, so yes inevitably at some point in time, my reflexes lose synchronisation and I'd end up screwing up some of the steps. But I hope standing at the back helps in the progression of the video though......lol.
Anyway, thanks Limei for teaching us the steps so patiently, thanks Serena for the curry puffs, thanks Shinyi for filming...Okay, basically, thanks everyone for your efforts! (I wouldn't count myself out for this, muahaha)
Yup. After which, I hanged around with some seniors like Wenwei, Ching Shy, Cecilia and...(omg I forgot her name :x). It's been so long I've seen them and it's really nice to be able to catch up with them. Pretty cool.
Met up with Cherminn at KFC for lunch. Actually, she asked me to teach her E math...as in, me going over to her place, or the other way around. However, it turned out that we went back to our respective homes in the end. Oh well, at least it's good to see a bestie again. (:

Actually, I could've gone to somewhere else. Unfortunately, this person couldn't make it today. Hmm, but I guess it's alright, considering we've plenty of opportunities to hang out together in the future. Yup. Goodbye for now. Wish me luck for my prelims too.

So here we go, first month to forever.
I love you, I'll remember.

2009-08-27T16:28:00.003+08:00

I'm in school now.
It's been a long time since I've logged in to this blogging account.
Long time since I've been online.
I wouldn't say nothing happened in this span of time, nor would I say many things happened. The best things and the worst things came together at the same time - ♥ ; pressure/psycho-ing from mom, upcoming prelims. I'm juggling fine with this and that, but somehow there're still some existing issues i.e. m_th_r.
Still, I've got alot to catch up in my acadamic studies. Everything seems to be happening so fast, yet so slow. I don't know how to explain this. So fast when exams are dashing right towards me, so slow when things get in the way.

I am vexed, actually. I have lost my wallet on Monday, 24th August 2009, during lessons and after recess. In class, it was in my bag. I know it was absolutely foolish of me on my part to leave my valuables unattended, and I regret it a whole lot. The current consequences I've to face right now...is being at home, going back to the house of cards with an exasperated mother who resents/spites/nags/psycho me for losing it - particularly, the house key.

Some idiot actually/~~conveniently~~ took it. I don't know who's the idiot who stole my stuff, or what have I done to deserve such shit. I don't know if anyone's reading this, but please, if you are the one who took it, please have a heart and return the wallet to me. At least the EZ-link card and the house key. I don't care if how you want to squander away the SGD$30++; what I wanna say is: what goes around comes around. Karma - we'd call it, isn't it? You've just gained $30+, but you're gonna lose more in the coming future 'cause you know it's freaking not yours.

Alright, so thirty-first is arriving, and Teachers' Day too.
Happy Teachers' Day in advance to all teachers! (in case I do not get to go online on 1st September)
Happy Belated 15th Birthday to my dear Jiaxin!

Really sorry I forgot your birthday until just now. Love you, xinxin! :D

Getting monotonous, for sure.

....On second thought, actually, not. (♥)

2009-08-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY (belated) 44TH BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!

And I think it's time for me to be a little more constructive.
Byeeeeeeeee.

I am, forevermore, yours.

2009-08-05T14:51:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging for quite a while and I suppose it doesn't really matter anyway for there's really nothing much that I could say (here).
Exams are drawing near, so I guess I should really fear.
My attention's never off from studies: you are my affirmation and I love thee.

Thee = Books (What were you thinking of? HAHAHA)

So yes, I will give it my best shot and fall deeply in love with O levels and get it done and over with. ~~Please don't do this to me, mommy.~~

Pretend truthfully.

2009-07-28T23:24:00.001+08:00

TRIBUTE TO A POET

In a crowd full of people, where
one or two more didn't seem to
Matter,
There stood a quiet, young gentleman.

Whoever bothered or knew what he was? He did.

He sat down on the park bench, then
took out a blank sheet of paper
A pen, and began
verbalising

about everything. (silently)

From the wonders,
to the joy,
to melancholia,
to all atrocities of
Life.
Rhapsodized in styles of all kinds

Have you ever seen a rhapsody rhapsodizing a
Rhapsody?

Did you ever notice the poet?

2009-07-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging nor have I been constructive.
I think I should really get down to work soon.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

WAKE UP JOAN!!!

2009-07-20T23:10:00.003+08:00

Yay for my current score! And this time, I didn't censor/pixelate the rest of the players below me because I'm lazy to edit.
At the same time, it's also to show that I owned Zhijian and he's feeling quite sore about it. HAHAHA I'M JUST KIDDING.

School is fine. Definition of "fine" today: Fine = pretty bad + pretty good (cancelling each other out)
The pretty bad was of course started out by ASS-ASS (SS) which was literally being an ass on the very first period of the week. I am trying hard to like ass-ass but I just can't seem to bring myself to...why? To those ass-ass lovers, I am very sorry I am an insult to this subject. Maybe some things just aren't working out. Perhaps I might needa turn to some other helping hands. Humanities' brain juice was exhausted.

Fortunately, Literature was kind to us today. Or rather, Literature has always been kind to us (okay, maybe to me) because Ms Angeline Lee is most of the time guiding us through the texts and all. Maybe that's why I don't find it hard to like Literature.

I am also surprised that I had the mental tenacity to stay awake during the pretty-dry Chemistry lesson after a recess. Maybe I'm used to boredom.

Then there was E math. Maybe Mensuration is pretty alright to me.

The good things came as we came nearer to the end of the day. Mr Chng brought in a great deal of 'extra general knowledge' and the world into the four walls. He told us about the "Big Bang", E=MC² and many other awesome interesting stuff. He also told us that Earth will end in about 5 billion years where the Sun will expand into a big red ball with its radius all the way up till planet Mars before it explodes and die off. So we will not live that long to see that.

In EL lesson, we got Hershey's chocolates from Ms Nithiya for the Get Well card. We also did lips/mouth warm-up for the oral practice. Hilarious. Ahaha, and I've got another Hershey's chocolate for pronouncing "already"! YAY.

It has been a long time since I've blogged like that; talking about various subjects, school and all. Let's just say I'm treating this blog as an outlet of my weird thoughts on my weird life. The weirdly-normal unnoticed girl-next-door who is also a sensible crapper. Oxymoron all over. Told ya, I'm weird.

"Maybe" is my pet word now (not pet phrase). Maybe I'll remove my Cbox someday since it's been pathetically left to rot now. Maybe I'll just let readers comment in the Haloscan comment boxes. Maybe I'm gonna take a bow soon. Maybe I am off from Blogger.

2009-07-17T23:05:00.003+08:00

I just thought of how awesome some school days can be.
There was a Social Studies test.
Apparently, only 3 people passed the Social Studies test. And needless to say, yes I'm one of those who failed (duh). This is how awesome Mdm Rozi was:
"I am a nice lady. I am not going to announce the marks"
For a moment, we were quite glad...but............
She placed the papers at the VISUALISER, where everyone could see so clearly, and said "Ha-ha, I love this machine!"
We were all completely pwned by her like HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

And I remember some of Mrs Melissa Tan's pet phrases:
"Never intersect how to have solution?"
"Never meet how to have offspring???"
"You want to argue 7 smaller than 6 (7<6)? Want to fight for the Nobel prize is it?"
"Ah...xxx, xxx, xxx, highly suspect!"

I remember how I slacked around yesterday after lessons and was one of the last few Westwoodians to go off. I laughed hysterically when Azhar told me Elton called him a "gay kia" on Facebook and had bought him over. AHAHAHAHA! Azhar, I am so not going to buy you from Elton and I'm gonna let you continue to be his "gay kia". MUAHAHAHAHA!
Okay speaking of which, I don't even know that there was such a thing going on. Buying and selling of friends on Facebook? Hmm okay maybe I haven't been online too much already, that's why I'm lagging behind. Still, I don't really bother so much about online life so it doesn't really matter bwahaha. (...you can see from the number of updates on this blog too)

Alright, I know I sound quite sick to be able to remember so many funny things, but this seem to be the only way to cheer myself up.

Yup. Anyway I went out with mommy just now and it was pretty fine. (:
Ya know, men often say that women are such a bother, but no, I'd beg to differ. Times have changed, and so have these cliched lines.
~~Women are such a bother~~
MEN ARE THE BOTHER
(Rightzxz, I am directing at my family's men only. So GUYS/MEN out there reading this, please don't freaking get offended. Shoosh. But for those ladies out there, if you agree with this, I wouldn't mind too!)

I'm off to cuddle my bear.

2009-07-12T23:36:00.005+08:00

Please click to enlarge the image.

Hahahahaha this was created during the HBL period when I didn't know how to do some of the Chemistry questions, and I actually asked my bro for help.
Then......hahaha he just rocked the chemistry worksheet totally in the boxed-red area! NICE ONE! OPPS. (please bear in mind this is not meant to offend Chemistry teachers/lovers or insult this subject)
This thing is just for laughs.

Anyway, I am also here to say I'm a noob in DJ Max but am still proud of it because I enjoy it. Yay I'm a natural noob ^^
And yay I love Paramore's Ignorance and I'm so looking forward to the release of the whole of Brand New Eyes (new) album! Nyehehehehehe!

2009-07-09T22:13:00.003+08:00

Hi.
I am tired (of living).
Delude yourself for a little while more, Joan. You can do this.

Slumber. Dumber. Whatever.

2009-07-05T19:28:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to Shirleneh, Jeselyn Tay,

Hong Wei, United States of America! (4th July)
And lastly, confuckingratulations to Joan Tong who had turned 16! I am legalised to watch NC16 movies from now on.
Condolences to my dad's friend's father, may you rest in peace. (left on 4th July, 2009)

These are some people I want to thank:

1. Felix
2. Shirlene
3. Adrian
4. Hui Yi
5. Cheong Sian
6. Royston
7. Auntie Lieng Choo/Xiao-gim
8. Jing Jing
9. Ray Gin
10. Shi Jie
11. Belle
12. Yong Cheng/Zee
13. Verlin
14. Joshua Korkor
15. Jiaxin
16. Melissa Deng
17. Woan Rong
18. Shou Hua
19. Mars
20. Stanley Khor
21. Begonia
22. Min Xian
23. Azhar
24. Cherminn
25. Hannan
26. Kathleen

Thank you guys so much for your birthday wishes. If I had left any of your names out, please tell me alright. (:
And up there, you can see a name being bolded. Hahaha alrights ahem, Melissa Deng Xiu Yan, my goody-weird-lovable cousin, was my saviour of 4th July 2009. Like, really.
She was the only one free and bothered enough to spend time with me on my birthday; one who went shopping with me at Expo, bought me nice presents, treated me to a good meal at BBQ Chicken, brought me to visit Jason & Auntie Pauline, treated my family to delicious doughnuts and saw me home (though I was reluctant to go home). She's a weird person! She doesn't allow me to fork out money! :O

"Weird teenager. I am the adult and I have income. You are the kid. I will pay for everything today"

LOLOL!
So yes, there she goes, she paid everything for me. Man, how can I ever repay you, Melissa? [:
Really thanks a million for yesterday, it was awesome being with you even though you are the "sit down drink tea eat cake talk chill and read a book" kind of person who has an all-new definition of "fun". Love ya!♥
Thank you Jason (my cousin) for the honey stick and Lackerol. Like always, you are still very much in love with Lackerol. =p
And of course, thank you Mommy & Auntie Pauline for the red packets.
Thank you all.

PS: Melissa is a good catch, so guys, grab her! While stocks last! =P
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
And oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETER! I BRIBED YOU TODAY WITH $250 HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2009-07-03T23:50:00.009+08:00

Dad: What do you want for your birthday present?
Me: Give me a smile
Dad: (smiles widely)
Me: Yup, good enough.

I don't really need anything more. I already am very fortunate and own whatever I need. Celebration of Daddy's birthday happaned merely few hours ago. Haha, hope you're happy, daddy! :D
And here are some retarded moments at dinner just now...ahaha.

Me: (uses chopsticks to eat Jonathan's ice-cream)
Me: This is the oriental way of eating. We are Asians, so we have to use chopsticks to eat ice-cream!
Jonathan: Then trying drinking Strawberry milkshake with chopsticks?
Me: (pauses) Can't...it is liquid.
Jonathan: Can! Let me show you how!

Let's take a look at what J.O. Nathan is capable of...
(you may want to click these images for clearer view)

Step 1.

Step 2.

Lastly........
THE SPOILER. (PLEASE CLICK IT!)
How you like that man, HAHAHAHA.

And oh yes, Happy Birthday to Tom Cruise too! :D

2009-07-03T00:06:00.016+08:00

HAPPY 52ND BIRTHDAY TO MY

DEAREST FOREVER LOVING

DADDY! ♥♥♥

I love you daddy! (:
The month of July comes really fast. It is past 12am and it's my dad's birthday now. And in less than 24 hours' time, my day would come. School is still on hiatus but is gracious enough to present me many prestigious gifts in advance, through the advanced technology and allowing me to turn on my computer for hours and hours, so much so that it allows me to enjoy every single minute of it. Million thanks?

Alrights, anyway these are the pictures from the month of June. Was selectively uploading.

Absence of captions is the result of laziness. Sorry but I'm not apologetic. HAHAHA.

2009-06-30T02:15:00.004+08:00

I can no longer suppress this anymore, like oh no, I feel like...

FISH YOU WESTWOOD YOU DUMB DUMB DUMB ASSES WHO KEEP SPAMMING OUR LITESPEED PLATFORM WITH ALL THE ASSIGNMENTS UNDER THE BEAUTIFUL NAME OF HBL HOW NICE YOU'VE PUT IT AND ALL THE DEADLINES ARE SO TIGHT OMG OMG OMG. WESTWOOD PLEASE REOPEN I BEG OF YOU PLEASE REOPEN SOON PLEASE LET US OFF WE CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE LIKE WHAT THE SHITTY POO-POO. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN FOR WESTWOOD'S OVERNIGHT FAME IN CLOSING SCHOOL FOR H1N1 BECAUSE THIS SUCKS LIKE TOTALLY SHOOSH. I DON'T WANT THIS FREAKING HOLIDAY NOW.
FISH YOU H1N1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am very sorry I am doing this. I'm losing my composure. ):
And oh yes, I do miss Michael Jackson a lot. Rest in peace.

2009-06-29T21:52:00.006+08:00

Something is really wrong with Blogger, I cannot upload those photos that I've taken in Genting. Geez. Anyway, the Genting trip was fine. Pretty fun sometimes, but was kinda ruined a little as well. Whatever.

School holidays are extended so school will only resume on 7th July. I am fine with extension of holidays but at the same time I'd roll my eyes at something, well that is, the all-time sianzation for students....ASSIGNMENTS.
(sorry I've run out of EL vocabulary to describe this term, sometimes I really do appreciate Singlish's existence)

Yes, online assignments under the name of "Home-Based Learning". Ya know, when I saw this home-based thing, I was kinda expecting some video tutorials or whatever, but look, haha how fascinating this thing is. So it turns out to be assignments under the godly name of HBL! HAHAHA. Sorry again, if I don't laugh, it'd mean that I'd go on and on with all the obscene text-crap (wow new term).

Alright, I think I'm getting boring...erm okay no wait, something interesting just popped up. My current personal message has this sentence: "I am thinking of how to celebrate 4th July, suggestions?"
And interestingly, Ray Gin suggests that I go to USA and be an American since it's Americans' Independence. Haha, then I'd be the outcast with dark hair, single eyelids and high cheekbones down there. But no, really, I'm not celebrating Americans' Independence though it sounds cool enough. Hahaha okay whatever.

HAHAHA I AM SO NOT FINE TODAY. :)
~~I am hahaha-ing just so that I am fine. Got it? HAHA.~~

2009-06-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

First of all...
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO SIM SHI JIE!!! :D :D :D
Even though you still can't watch R21 movies yet, it is good enough to be able to watch NC16 movies now. One step at a time! But don't worry, you'll get to see R21 movies in 5 years' time! :D

Secondly...
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHERS IN THE WORLD (ESPECIALLY MY DADDY)!
Daddy, you're awesome. Love you dad! ♥

This will probably be the last post before I go to Genting tomorrow. The first time I am going on an overseas trip with my family, hahaha. Though it is only Genting, it is good enough that we're finally going out of Singapore for once. I am, ahem almost done with my SS corrections. I'm getting there! Hahaha okay wish me a safe journey ahead!

PS: All fellow students, please log on to this page, and at the bottom left there is a poll. Please vote for extension of holidays. Spread the news & thanks!

2009-06-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

Had a doctor's appointment at NUH today. Was pretty good. I grew taller (163cm).
I didn't have to wait that long because dad fetched mom & I there - we were early. Have never felt better than this. Thanks a bunch to Daddy for the car ride ♥

I think I've been doing things that are constructive today for completing E math paper 1 and some of A math during the 3-hour Math tuition. I am thinking of how to write my EL essay. Ya know, "The delights and frustrations of being a teenager" is a really tricky topic that makes one go off-track very easily.
Now, I am going to write on "Greed" instead, but I've gotta come up with a new story altogether even though I've written on it before. Geez.
It is so easy to type whatever I want over here but so hard to type on the work itself. What's wrong with me? Darn.

I think I am not going anywhere tomorrow. Feels like June really isn't our (Cherminn & I) month. Life keeps getting in the way, whenever we try somehow the plan is always rearranged.
Familar? Somehow this set of lyrics seem to fit very well in this scenario, hahahaha. Shi Jie and Mars wanted to go to Ikea but I didn't reply in time, so it was too late. Sorry buddies ):
Bahhhhhh.

I guess I'm left with no choice this time so I needa do what is expected of me. Hello to assignments, my best friends.

Can you sense reluctance? :O

2009-06-17T22:11:00.005+08:00

One day, Shi Jie, Mars and Joan were at the canteen. Shi Jie was meddling with his digital camera and took a bad shot...

Joan: Hahaha your camera is noob! But my camera noober.
Shi Jie: Huh? Oh, what is the brand of your camera?
Joan: NOKIA.

LOL. Yeah, I freaking don't own a digital camera at all. Hahahaha.
Right, ahem I've been feeling quite healthy these two days, for the fact that I've been going hiking & running in the morning! Hiking yesterday with dad; running with dad & mom (okay she strolled lol). Certainly feels great eh?

My dad tells me not to reveal his face so readily so I covered his face with a heart! It's smiling with me! (:

Lol?

I like hiking with daddy, especially when it came to the 184-step strenuous staircase - it's the part where I kinda felt like giving up, but didn't stop because daddy held me by my hand and we climbed the stairway together. I felt secure being with my dad; and I liked it. Hahaha omg:)
Anyway, I'm done with Physics assignment, with the exception of some questions. In the meantime, I'll have to give my brother Jonathan Tong the credit for helping me with Physics yesterday. Thanks bro!♥
The progression of my assignments have been pretty slow, I suppose. I'll really have to finish them up asap, ideally before my Genting trip on the 22nd June.
My mom told me that school holidays might be prolonged due to the H1N1 Influenza A, as reported on the News. My gosh, tell me this is not true because I don't wanna be missing lessons & having a delayed O level exam! This isn't going to be true, right?

2009-06-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

I watched Hellboy on Channel 5 just now and I loved it! Go Hellboy, I'm behind you! HAHA whatever. Alright, I attempted some Physics but realised I am stuck on finding the angle of refraction. Oh my gosh, how could I have forgotten how to find the angle of refraction?!?!
Dumb dumb dumb. Looks like I'll have to BARGE into the next door to ~~disturb~~ pester the Scientist J.O. Nathan already. Nyehehe, beware bro! :P
Anyway, I am really looking forward to the day when I remove those metal chains from my teeth. What are they called? Hmm...oh yes Braces!
I'm so looking forward to seeing my perfect set of teeth after my O levels! Zomg, I'm not even prepared for O's and I'm dreaming about what's coming up already. ZOMG ZOMG ZOMGGGG. Get these sinful thoughts outta your head, Joan!

2009-06-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I have done this before, right? Oh well.

2009-06-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

I am quite stuck at E math assignment.
I am trying to do the online English assignment now.
I am not thinking about how many things I have to complete at the end of this vacation.
I don't wanna start thinking and stressing myself.
So I will do them one at a time.
No stress. No stress. No stress.
On a lighter note, I have done the English vocab worksheet.
It is just a tiny-bit of the assignment but at least I've done something.
And please don't mention Social studies to me. I will do it later.

And heck, is this even a vacation at all?
Vacation only starts after the last paper on 6th November damn it!

2009-06-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

That was yesterday, hehehehehehe.
I'm now really into Bejeweled Blitz, oh my God, and it's the only game I play! I derive alot of pleasure from it....hey wait, I think that sounds kinda wrong? Ha, in any case, I just find it very fun to play with. (:
Right, anyway I feel kinda tired today. Probably zonked out from all the math? Plus there's somebody has been 'pestering' me a lot lately that I don't really feel like replying anymore -_-
Omg this is probably the first time I'm feeling this way and I know this sounds very mean, but really I can't help it. I feel like a meanie, but at the same time, I don't feel obliged to entertain. Like, darn it? Darn me.
Argh I really shouldn't talking about it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So kids, now you see how cranky I've become? :O

2009-06-12T22:25:00.005+08:00

Some pics from Famine Camp 2009...

Hi Hybrid of Cat-&-lion! I miss you!

And I miss Jasmine too.

Today (Bukit Timah Hills)...

Love you mommy & daddy! I love this.

You'll really needa zoom-in this image, it's an old monitor lizard. (I told you my cam sucks)

LOOK AT THIS FREAKING CUTE BABY! He's Henry! OMGGG.Hiking with my mom & dad this morning was good, pretty good. It's been a long time since I've went to Bukit Timah Hills anyway, so I thought I might as well just sweat it out. Haha. I must admit, though I really hate to, that my stamina has dropped over the past few months. I guess it must've been because of studies that I've been neglecting exercise and all? Geez.
Anyway it felt really great after hiking with my daddy, heh.
And oh yes, how can I forget?
HAPPY NC16 BIRTHDAY, MARS!!!!!! ♥♥♥
Today I really, really thought of wanting to celebrate her birthday with Mars but I don't know.......argh, somehow didn't get to. I don't know how's she now but I still wish her a Happy 16th Birthday anyway....[:
Yup. Alright, besides hiking, I don't think I've done anything constructive today. I'll do it tomorrow I promise; I've got tuition tomorrow! HEHHHHHHH WHATEVERRRR.
Okay fine, goodbye for now!

Oh my gosh, the 4G class 'FORUM' is getting really, really interesting! Go check it out man! The url's on the 10th June's post (:

2009-06-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

I think today's been pretty cool considering today being the last day of lessons. YEAHHHHH BABE.
But the not-so-good thing is, we've freakin' got a tonne of holiday assignments zzzzz. Yup, A math lesson was fine, and so was the A math test result. I'm still not there yet.
It was even cooler to be able to hang out with 4G peeps (Vanessa, Sheridin, Huiyi, Xiaofen, Dickson, Junwei, Elton) at SAFRA although I didn't really join in to play in the playground or engage actively in the Pool game. I was playing Dickson's PSP even though I was noob at it. I also thank Elton (Sim) for lending me his handphone to surf the internet/go on Facebook to keep me entertained. Hahaha.
I want Elton's phone!!!!! My phone's internet thing is super laggy and it needs moneyyyyyyyy!!! GAH. [edited]
And oh yes, we met Danson there as well! I couldn't recognise him 'cause he was in white spectacles like lollllll. Yeah, HIIIIII DANSON!!!!!![/edited]
Okay I am kidding. I think I ought to be contented for having an N81 8GB handphone which I can store plenty of songs already? Yeah, so what were you thinking of Joan?!?!?!

Sorry I'm crazy.

2009-06-10T23:05:00.004+08:00

Hey Westwood Choristers!
I know I'm a so-history (passed-out) choir member but yes I'm 'helping' Chorus once again!
Well, that is if you consider that as helping.
Anyway, ahem, my fellow juniors, would you please Become a Fan of musiciseverywhere, Westwood Chorus?
I was the 2nd Fan ya know, muahaha! What are you waiting for my dear juniors? Go on, click it! :D

PS (for 4G): I've just uploaded a picture on Facebook and now it's become a 'forum'! Please feel free to tag the photos alright, thanks a bunch people!

2009-06-10T15:09:00.003+08:00

Joan Tong hereby declares that......

SHE IS FREAKIN' OWNED BY SORE THROAT & BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes and it sucks like shittypoopooyadayadalalalafluckblahblahtoooooooootomgwftbbq (?)
I don't make any sense now because my vocal chords are not making sense out of me and it's really really annoying and irritating and sucky I'm typing without commas or full-stops now everything's become continuous it's draggy and dreary and guess what my condition is as continuous as this too my vocabulary is limited over here for once so be it so yada yada yada so long live long good good good bye for now. (wow, finally one full-stop?)

2009-06-07T16:21:00.005+08:00

5 - 6th June, Famine Camp (over)

Famine camp was pretty alright I guess. I was in Myanmar - Wai. Like, WHY?!?!?!
Yeah why was I in Wai family, ha. Anyway there're 11 people in my group (I wouldn't say it's a family lol) - 5 from 4G, 3 from NYJC and 3 from ACJC. Namely? Minxian, Joan, Junwei, Daniel, Ruiyi, Yuyin, Carmel, Madeline, Kathleen (not Quek), Priscilla and Marcus. Also not forgetting our lovely cutie adorable facilitator Jasmine (:
Generally awesome people to be with - I say generally. Hehehe okay shoosh. [I am nice with words]

On Day One, my dad fetched me to ACS (Barker Road). I was lucky my dad knew the way there anyway, bwahaha thanks Dad! Love you (:
I walked in and I was relieved to see my dear classmates sitting around to wait for the registration time. I remember during the registration queue, a HCI (Hwa Chong) girl was standing alone behind me, so I smiled to her. She was in Myanmar too, but not in my group. Later on at the auditorium, we sat next to each other and I must say we hit off quite well. She says she really respects O level students alot because they really rely on their own efforts and abilities to get into a JC, while an IP student can fail and still get promoted anyway. Ha, she's really different. Her name is Simin. [:
The dynamic opening of the 30-Hour Famine Camp was a pretty good headstart that got most of us rather hyped up. Statistics were disturbing. Then it was Phase 1 - we had to built a shelter using cardboards, sticks, newspapers etc for the whole 'family', under the hot sun. Apparently, our materials were in the locked-up classrooms so we had to hunt for materials. Our Head and Vice-head Priscilla and Marcus went all out to search high and low for materials - thanks alot for that. (:
Yuyin was very pitiful 'cause she had a really bad sunburn just one day before the camp, ouchhh.
After clearing Phase 1, it was a short assembly at the Audi, then we moved on to Phase 2. Phase 2 was pretty interesting as we had to 'work' for those ice-cream sticks. I worked as a Child Prostitute twice. Prostitution = Hugging trees! What were you thinking of?! =p
It was funny how Marcus seemed to feel very proud to be a gigolo/prostitute.
It was funny how the gamemasters made Daniel, Junwei and Ruiyi to MOAN DISTURBINGLY at the pillar.
It was funny when one of the gamemasters secretly gave me 4 ice-cream sticks after being a prostitute for the second time when others were supposed to get only 3 after the 2nd time round, leaving me wonder why he did that. Laughs my ass off.
It was funny when another gamemaster found out about me having 4 and he went to reduce to only ONE pathetic stick for each 2nd timers from then on. HAHAHA.
However, having Minxian as the Grandparent who's 'injured' in the leg to jump around was really worrying. How I wished the one 'injured' was me, so I could jump around more and lose more weight LOL.
Erm, what else? Oh yeah, Kat 'sacrificed' her limbs. It was really noble of her (:
So most of us got infected with HIV/AIDS, something denoted by black trash bags which we had to wear over like a very cool coat. That's what the gamemaster said? Lols.
Our leaders have decided to give up 80 sticks to get us all cured. The decision was, Health or Money? It was the dilemma the parents over at the Third World have to face - and this got me thinking.

"They're not like us where decisions can be made so easily; we have either black or white to choose from. But they do not have distinct black or white; all they have are shades of gray. No matter what decision they make, it is still a bad decision"

I felt sympathetic towards them. ):
Then there was a session with some of Cambodian members who came to share with us their true story. I like the two kids (:
We had 100 plus.
Then we had some reflective (or should I say hypnotising) nightwalk before we were allowed to go and sleep. We couldn't bathe like damn, but hey wait, people in other countries don't really get to bathe everyday, so I guess it doesn't really matter anyway.
At night, I slept with Madeline, Yuyin and Carmel. I laid in between Yuyin and Madeline, but I couldn't sleep well at night. People in the indoor sports hall were frigging walking around and making a hell out of a noise. Began coughing.

Second day of the camp: Madeline became partially blind as she had a spectacles crushed. We assumed that other people had stepped on them when they were walking around at night or something, but at the same time, I also suspect myself being the culprit for spoiling it since I slept beside Madeline. Oh my God, I don't know. I really don't know. I am really very superbly sorry if I was the one. =X
I was also quite pathetic since I've lost my voice overnight for no reason. Was coughing real hard then, and I sounded like some old uncle. GIRL BASS! Omg then I'll be the first girl bass in the world, how cool is that? Bah.
For "breakfast" we had some packet drinks. I had two. =p
We also found out that Kat went home 'cause of her old limb injuries. I really hope she's doing fine.
Then we headed down to Tampines to collect old newspapers, clothes and toys, door-to-door. The first round was with Daniel and Minxian and it was kinda fun, though the things might've been heavy. Minxian was really scared of dogs so those units with dogs were 'handled' by me. Lol. I think some dogs really deserve to be called HOTDOGS. (nyehehe)
The second round was with Priscilla and Marcus. And it was kinda.....weird?
I mean, haha okay forget it never mind. It was nice to 'bully' Marcus by making him carry heavy loads hahahahaha.
Yup, we rested while we waited for the lorry to come. We went to Temasek Poly for the toilets.
When the truck arrived, we helped out in carrying the load up. I really marvelled at how people could make things happen with just their eyes. Marvellous. It'd be marvellous if you can get what I'm talking about lols. [I am being nice again]
Went back to ACS to retrieve our things and clean up, but the hall was too clean to be cleaned, so haha yes we didn't do anything. Bleah.
We had this dumb-yet-fun cheer thing going on but yeah you know I can't shout. Darn.
And oh yes, thanks a bunch Carmel, for your Fishermen's Friend. :DD
Left ACS and went to Downtown East. Jack & Rai were fabulous and I loved their "The Fa la la Song". So far, I've been trying to find it but to no avail. Does anyone have this song? Please please please send it to me. (:
I also liked the Hiphop dancers from NTU. Sorry I've forgotten about the name of the group already, but their dance was really cute. Last but not least, A-MEI appeared. I'm not really a big fan of hers but okay, I appreciate every performer anyway. I wanted so much to scream and shout but I couldn't. That was a really sad thing. Yes. Countdown. Break fast. And I went home all alone, by myself.

At Pasir Ris MRT station, I met Simin again! So coincidental!
It was really nice talking to her, and, I'm also really touched. When she saw struggling hard to speak and coughing so hard, she gave me the whole lot of her lozenges which her grandma had given her. I felt kinda bad, I didn't wanna accept it, but she insisted, saying that I have a long journey & I needed them to last throughout. Thank you so much, Simin. Thank you.
It was merely two days since we knew each other and yet she could treat me so well. I was really touched. Thanks so much once again.

Got home finally. I went online, but didn't bother to blog until now. You know, I'll never forget these events in the camp. I'll remember every single one of the members. I will also pray for the betterment of the people who are less fortunate than me, Amen.

2009-06-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

Ohhh right, I reckon I've been really busy these days eh? Today's the 1st June already, how fast?
Let me briefly touch on the events that occurred the last few days, can I? So here goes.

Last Friday on 29th May, I went to Lot 1 with my forever-dearest Cherminn to see Jolin Tsai. It was her ideaaaaaaa!!! Like always, she'd be indecisive and would say ridiculous things like "Eh, we should've gone to Bugis" kind of thing, but I still love her anyway, haha (:
So we went to Lot 1 and it was crowded. She was deliberating also, whether to buy Jolin's album or not. Bwaha. At the same time, I went there for another motive as well - to prepare something for the following day. It was something pretty lame by the way.
Standing at the back of the sardine-like crowd, we could barely see what the heck was happening on stage. I guess I really hated myself for being short (a mediocre 1.60cm or 1.61cm)? Hahaha, so I had to peep at other people's videocam to see Jolin. -_-
What infuriates me more was my forever-booboo Nokia handphone camera which doesn't even allow me to ZOOM-IN omg. Actually, I like Nokia. I really do. But the main sucky part is the camera zzzzzz. If only it had 3.2 megapixels or something - not 2 megapixels. Rawr, I think I should really learn how to be contented with what I have, so shoosh.

I slept late that night. I was watching BOF and rushing out a card at the same time. The next day, it was 30th May. HAPPY 51ST BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!
I hope you liked my gift. :P Love you.
At night, Daddy brought us to SAFRA initially for some good food, but we later then realised we weren't used to the working style there, so we left. My dad was really hilarious when he mocked at the car infront of us who didn't have enough money in his credit card for the carpark fees, but he was even funnier when he said "Nah bu!" the moment he saw how much he was charged. It was really expensive, really. We merely went there to walk and look around, we didn't eat or use anything, neither did we stay there for more than 15 minutes, yet we were charged $3.24 for the parking fees. Like, LOLLLLLL.
Ha, so we headed to Nihon Mura. Had a filling dinner there. I hope my mom was happy though.

Then yesterday, on the 31st May, we (whole family) all went to the Discovery Centre to take part in the Family Day event, together with my Dad's friend's family of four. It was nothing much basically since I've been there before. And I was a real noob at shooting, like, I couldn't really see and aim properly. Is my eyesight failing on me? ):
Participated in some lame games as well and sometimes it was rather amusing. Haha. The last event was the Lucky Draw but we didn't win anything, oh well. Though it was really exciting, I suppose it's good enough we went for an outing/a gathering? At least it's a totally different Sunday altogether; not a market-cum-breakfast-only day at least? I look forward to more of such outings. (East Coast, skating :P) Shoosh, my parents will never allow me to learn skates. ):

Anyway, when we returned, we were dead beat. I slept alot. And today, being the 1st of June, we sat for our GCE 'O' Level Chinese Papers 1 & 2. I guess it was pretty okay for me, and hope it'd be a B3 or a B4, so I needn't retake it. Before the papers, the MT department gave us all an apple each, and I found it rather intriguing - apple? Why apple? They (teachers) said A stands for Apple = they want us to score A's for the papers. It was kinda funny but also rather encouraging, ain't it? I haven't ate the apple yet. It's in my fridge. I think I'll probably eat it tomorrow? Ha.

Whoo, hey it's been a pretty long time since I've typed out such a long & detailed post eh? Frankly, I haven't had the time or mood the past few months until today. Laughs my Bear off. =p

2009-05-27T21:29:00.005+08:00

I think I am better at coming up with word equations of Chinese Intensive than chemical equations, even if they might not make sense to you guys. Those state symbols that I've included are random so don't bother about it. I don't want to end up having friends failing their Chemistry for following in my cursory creation. (?) Bwaha, so here goes:

Legend: State symbols (new edition*)
s = Solid
l = Liquid
g = Gaseous
aq = aqueous
***sl = sublime (lol)

In this week, I will require more sleep than usual. This will mean I will be lying on my bed and hugging my teddy bear for longer hours in the afternoon. The equation:

This week(sl) = More sleep (g)

After having more sleep, it will mean that energy, brain power and creative juices are more or less replenished. Equation:

More sleep (g) = REPLENISHED energy (aq) + brain power (l) + CREATIVE JUICES (l)

These amount of energy, brain power and creative juices gained will convert into actions which will allow the writer to write better.

Replenished energy (aq) + brain power (l) + creative juices (l) = Write better (s)

Better writing will then be reflected on the scores appearing on the top-right hand corner of the script by its LARGER NUMBERS.

Write better (s) = SCORE BETTER IN O'S (s)

Last but not least, if the writer scores better in the O's, this will mean that the writer have succesfully cleared the hurdle.

Score better in O's (s) = MY EXAM (s)

And MYE is was so not my exam. Bahhhhh.
The vicious cycle of Mother Tongue papers goes on....

2009-05-24T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hello all once again.
Right, I don't know what I can post about but yes I'm posting. Currently, I'm also into BOF (Boys Over Flowers). It just started yesterday when I wanted to watch more online after watching on TV. Shucksssss.
My O level Chinese is only ONE week away and I'm doing something that I really shouldn't do....but let's look at it this way: MYE are just over and I can de-stress a little, right? Right. =P
Excuses, yeah yeah excuses. Ahahaha anything.

I will do my Chinese homeworkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahem, and that'll be right after a few more sections of BOF. (:
So long.

2009-05-22T18:48:00.004+08:00

Syazwan: Hey brother! (waves spastically to workers on roadside)
Ms Fong: Oi! Stop waving! This is Shenton Way!

Everyone laughed their asses off, hard.

Haha, that was just a random moment I thought about. I remember we were going to VCH or something, we were passing by Shenton Way. Then, this Syazwan would wave to the B's by the roadside and everyone in the bus (Sop + Bass) would laugh like lunatic. Hahaha okay I think something's wrong with me for blogging about things that happened a long time ago instead of blogging about the present. Shoosh.

Anyway, just yesterday, my MYE is over. Results...how should I say this, they can vary from the cloud right down to six feet underground? Alright I'm probably exaggerating a little bit, but yeah lol. I am still not there yet.
Chinese O level is only one week away and Chinese intensive started today. Intensive = squeeze brain cells/juice + OMG + WTH + BBQ(?).
Zzzzzzzzzz. You know how ~~enjoyable~~ is Chinese intensive hahahahaha.

I find this new blogskin weird, I don't know. I was just sick of the previous one. I suppose this is the simplest one I've designed, but I guess it should be fine? Random brushwork.

Goodbye for nowzxzxzxz. I'm really inspiration-less.

2009-05-15T19:08:00.005+08:00

Mid-Year Examinations are still not over.
So far, the only paper I've screwed up was the all-time booboo Social Studies. Gah okay whatever lol.
Anyways, I remember just last Saturday my dad fetched me to Marina Boulevard by car and my whole family tagged along. Literature Seminar on A Midsummer Night's Dream was pretty useful I guess, the professor was funny. My other dear fellow pure lit friends were looking all around for me but I didn't know that until Leying told me. She said that they could detect my JoanyBear(!) by Bluetooth but didn't know where I was sitting. Hahaha. And I remembered they kept saying that I looked like a working adult because of my dressing.....lol.
I remember that day, after the seminar, I went off with Nway Nway, Leying and Xuelin to Bugis. It was the first time I'm hanging out with them and it was pretty great, haha :D
And sometimes, I randomly recall about some things. I recalled about the things we've done in choir, the jokes my friends and I shared....
I was reminded of beautiful memories of various events, I was reminded of...
Ah, those flourishing reminscence. Ha.
And there was Mother's Day, too. Like always, I made my mom a card and she was touched. I'm glad she's happy to have me (:
Anyway, I've got a video to share with you people. I hope you guys will enjoy it hehehe(:
(To all Jean-Bauptiste Maunier lovers: you'll be enchanted by this :D)

Clémence & Jean-Bauptiste Maunier - Concerto pour deux voix

2009-05-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

Jordyn Taylor.
She's gorgeous. And her songs, they're superbly nice.
I LOVE JORDYN TAYLOR!

You know I am random.
Hahaha. ~.~

2009-05-02T22:00:00.004+08:00

I am not afraid to say that

I despise you with all my might and I have the least respect for you in the world.
You are such an ass and there is nothing good I can ever say about you.
You are a whore, a swine, a jackass, a loser
who does not know a shit about caring for others' feelings.
You are one hell of a shit.
It would be an insult to the adjectives consisting of "kind, caring, suave" if they are meant to describe you, 'cause
You are so not.
You are utterly disgusting, disappointing, demeaning, egotistical, self-centred and sickening.
You do not deserve love or care from anyone.
You do not even deserve to breathe in the air of this world.
You are an uncouth moron,
A self-proclaimed Genius.
O Genius, shall I kneel down before you?
Kneel down before your prestigious throne?
I don't think I am prejudiced by saying this
I don't think I am mean,
'Cause I know you are much meaner.
Kudos to you, Genius.
I pity our parents.
And I feel so ashamed to share the same blood.
I still feel that it's greatest sin I've ever committed
even though I didn't have a choice

2009-04-24T22:05:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY, MY TEDDY BEAR! :DDDD

Hahahaha, did I ever mention that there was a birthday for my teddy bear? I think this is the first time, yes? :P
Yup, anyway this is the day when I brought this adorable (to me) bear back home exactly eight years ago, when I was in primary 2. How time flies eh? She has been my best companion and will always be my best companion :D

Anyway, this afternoon, I literally burned and drank the notes for Extraction of Iron - Blast Furnace (as in memorising! what were you thinking?!?! lol)
I stayed back in school for 4 hours plus after school for a very simple reason: I didn't wanna go home. Well I guess I wouldn't wanna start blabbering about the H-word lest I bore you guys out to death. It can all be sum up in one word: Crap. That's about it. Haha (:

I've been pessimistic. Pessimistic about studies, people - practically everything. I'm cynical too. It's scary. O' Teddy, please take all these negativity away! I will then crown you my Lord! And LOL hey, I'm just kidding!

I think I am really running out of inspiration to post. How about treating this post a trash? Sounds like a good idea.

And swoosh! Joan is thrown into the bin!

2009-04-18T21:12:00.001+08:00

17th April 2009.
Yesterday was our big day (SYF; Slap-Your-Face), and I have passed out of Westwood Chorus - officially. Westwood Chorus has obtained a Silver.
The experience was great, in fact, this is the most memorable SYF I've ever had, really. We performed well and we know it. As a senior who's participating in it for the 2nd time, I did (really) hope for a Gold, for once, for ourselves.
Some of us are slightly disappointed that it is a Silver, but wait, it's quite a miracle to have made such quick progress within such a short period of time. From a COP standard a few weeks ago, to a Silver now, it really is a big jump - and the credit goes to everybody in choir.
We have made it, people. We have made it.
It is a miracle right from the start, to be able to join choir. Even though at some point in time I've lost patience, hope, faith (not Faith Lim alright! :P) in choir, I am glad that we've bounced back. It is a great thing to see, to see ourselves progressing, learning and growing so much. Life in choir has been very enriching for me for the past four years: KL trip in Sec 1, SYF in Sec 2, Prague trip in Sec 3, SYF in Sec 4. The highlights for the past few years.
How time flies, ha. I sincerely want to show my deepest gratitude especially to our dearest teachers-in-charge (Ms Pauline Fong, Ms Joy Chen, Ms Serene Tan) and our conductor Mr Wilson Goh.
From them, I've learnt many things.
From them, I've learnt how to cheat.
From them, I've learnt how to create magic with music.
From them, I've grown a lot.
They have shaped us/me. I will remember all the magical moments we shared. Thank you all so much.
I have not made the wrong choice in joining choir. Thank you all people, whom I received gifts from. People like Rebecca, Yansin, Wei Qiao, Mars, Vanessa, Shi Jie, Yanyi, an unnamed peer (lol). Yes, thank you all so much. Thank you for the memories, thank you for the music.
I've written messages to quite a handful of Choristers, but I've yet to write to our teachers & conductor. So, I'll post them all here.
This messages are dedicated to:
Ms Pauline Fong,

Ms Joy Chen,

Ms Serene Tan, and lastly,

Mr Wilson Goh.

Teachers (especially Ms Fong), I know you will be here reading this. Please do let your colleagues know as well.... (teachers: you all may want to save these images if you want to)
Hopefully, by 2011, you juniors will be able to clinch a Gold. Work hard, stay smiley, stay healthy, and I will always be there to root for you guys. I will really miss every single one of you. (:

Time to take a bow.

2009-04-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

In relation to the New form of Language, today, thou shalt use the Higher Self Speak Language now. You will come to understand what this will be like.

A few days ago, she has been rather negative, fine-yet-not-so. She cannot remember all the details, but she knew that there were numerous things that occurred which she found too overwhelming.
She has been screwing up tests, assignments, family, basically she's screwed up Life. She has got a loose screw and seriously needs a screwdriver.

She remembers, just two days ago, she participated in her last Cross Country in Westwood Secondary School.
She went to Chinese Garden with Jiaxin by bus and arrived rather early.
She also remembers the word "irony" is being used.
She thinks it is indeed a very big irony, to be disciplined, quiet and raring-to-strive-for-top-few in such a happy/merry/mirthful (or even noisy) event like the Cross Country.
She thinks it is very ironic that the shouting was done by the adults of the school when the shouting/cheering should be done by the children/teenagers of the school (students).
Well well well, she just hoped that they were as disciplined as they are now 10 years (or more) back. Hahahahahahaha how funny.
Anyway, she thinks this year's distance is especially short! Probably because she ran with Jiaxin, all throughout the race? Non-stop? Well that was an achievement for her!
After the run, she took a couple of class photos with 4GobbledyGook (probably the best class in the world). It was fun. She then went off with Jiaxin, and had lots of fun (: Lovelove♥♥

Hannan could not believe what he was listening to, and went "Oh HIS Gosh, he can't believe what he just heard!"
If you've realised, Joan has been using the 1st third person narrative. She does not use the words "Me", "Myself" and "I". She replaced all the banned words with "Her", "Him", "She", "He", "They", "We" etc. Not using Self as a 1st person is also better known as the Higher Self Speak Language.
Perhaps a campaign/workshop should be set up for this? HAHAHA.
Anyway, Joan will continue using the Higher Self Speak Language.

The following day was Good Friday. It certainly wasn't good with her family. Ahem.

Then today she had choir. 6 more days to the Slap Your Face competition, 6 more days to Passing Out Parade. She is overwhelmed by her myriad of feelings. Choir today was fine, fine, just fine. Well she doesn't know how to comment anymore? She chuckles.
After choir, she went home straight. She did some work, showered, slept for a while and met up with Cherminn Teo to catch a movie. They watched Fast & Furious 4. Joan thinks the movie was pretty alright, she really loves the Silver car and how the antagonist died at the end of the show. For those who have seen the movie, you'd probably think she is eccentric or a psychopath, but hahaha who cares? At the JP toilet, she also met her primary school good buddy Wan Lin by coincidence. It was really nice meeting her again, Wan Lin has grown prettier (:
She then accompanied Cherminn Teo to Popular for some things, and took a bus back home. She had a great time with Cherminn Teo. (: (: ♥
[even though Cherminn always postpone her meetings with Joan LOL]

Yup. That's about it. Now, so people, you get what Joan mean by using the Higher Self Speak Language? Practise it man, it's fun!

2009-04-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability.

You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea.

Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion.

You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone.

If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.

You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.

You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

2009-04-03T21:03:00.014+08:00

_I am everything that you are not.
_Unlike you, I do not have hair
_Nor pens
_Nor books
_Nor fats
_You have a fixed skin color but I don't
_I am special, in fact,
_I have TWO COLORS!
_I am pretty sweet and everyone loves me
_I appear even in their dreams
_I share a blue windbreaker with my other mates
_My name starts with the letter 'O' but
_I don't take 'O' levels or
_anything-you-are-imagining
_Trust me, I am irresistible!

_Now, can you now tell me,
_WHO AM I????

_CLICKY CLICK

2009-03-28T23:42:00.004+08:00

Hola everyone.
Basically today was about choir and it was alright. Games were pretty fun (on our side). Haha.
Mr Goh and Ms Chen wasn't here today, so we were on our own for the music. Ms Tan was with us, Ms Fong came in later. So yes on our own.
It was pretty pleasant until a conductor came in to listen to us. Somehow I have a very strong message to convey from this entire four years in Chorus though, and typing straight out here on this page itself is so obscene on the whole. It'd be so not Joan if I type on this posting area immediately. So to make things look presentable, I'm inviting you people to Click here if you would.

Perhaps you might think I'm being very petty. Perhaps you think I'm being obnoxious. But I believe if you have the same encounter as me (which I believe alot of you do), you'd probably share the same sentiments as me as well.
I feel stupid to be using the words "Me" and "I" and "Myself" all the time, because it makes me (ah see I'm using it again) Zoom-in 1000% when I only make up less than 0.01% on the world map. How nice if I don't use "I" so much and use more of "they" or "you" or "him" or "her", I think I will become a much better person. I think this world needs more of this, hmm.
Right, I shan't digress any further. Neither shall I ramble on about the matter anymore.
After choir, we went to Jurong Point. Had lunch. I bought some biscuits from a Japanese candy/snack shop. Mars and I talked alot again. (:

We went to the bus interchange. We met Merlyn. Merlyn was taking the same bus as me. Merlyn is a very nice girl. I went home. I napped. I woke up. I watched Global Warning? on History Channel. It was awesome but worrying. There was an Earth Hour from 8.30pm to 9.30pm. I think we should have more Earth Hour in future, to save the Earth.
I am typing this. I finished typing. Bye.

Your Handwriting Says You Are Not Traditional

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a lot of space in your life, and it's easy for you to feel stifled. You avoid commitment and responsibility whenever you can.

You are a free thinker. You are unique, open minded, and artistic. You don't care what other people think.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

2009-03-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

_Dried leaves rustled to the wind's howl
_They hustled to the ensnaring sound
_They walked, they thought,
__they stopped
___They sat.

_Underneath their breath they breathed in
__dubious figures
_On, sheets

_In an instant the sound went off
_They looked up
___They drifted back

__Unsmiling

2009-03-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

They say it was the March ~~Holidays~~,

WAS THERE???????

2009-03-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

Alright hi all, my family members are back this afternoon at about 5pm.
We didn't have choir today.
My very good friend Cherminn initially asked me out today but could not make it so I had a boring Saturday. She said she wanted to come up to my place but eventually didn't after knowing that my family would be back soon. Lol. I thought of asking some people out but didn't because I had alot of homework.
So in conclusion, I had a ~~bad~~ boring Saturday.

I'm left with alot of Math shit to do (both A math & E Math). I call them shit not because I hate Math but rather they're too overwhelming. They're all coincidentally topics which I am bad at; curves (E math), Area in Integration & Kinematics (A math). Kinematics is so much like Physics, and Mrs Melissa Tan says that Kinematics in A math do not require alot of theory like Physics. She says she has Zero knowledge in Physics...so that means I have -100 knowledge in Physics T.T!
LOL. Yes so tomorrow morning is the best time to rectify my problems.
Other than those math, I'm quite done with other work.

Yup. My parents and my bro came back with many many many many tidbits today so yay I'm gonna munch on them soon!
And I will control myself (really).........

2009-03-20T22:47:00.008+08:00

I just watched Meet The Robinsons on Disney Channel and found out it was really fabulous! It's so heartwarming like awww. Hahaha yeah.

Alrights, anyway we had choir today. Well a little bit different from the rest of the rehearsals though: another conductor came in to conduct us. He is Mr....err okay I-don't-know-his-name. All I know is that he is a refined Caucasian who complements and encourages people alot and addresses us as "Ladies and Gentlemen" instead of "Guys/Boys and Girls". He is very particular about the rhythm of our songs. He also speaks in PROPER English (like hahahahaha probably some of you know what I mean). He says that the nasal sound in Janger is really cool, but guess what, he's cooler. We had a great time with Mr. (Caucasian). Okay what a name but yes it was really nice. (:

Yup, after choir I went to JP with Mars. It's really nice hanging out with Mars(y) :D
Hahahaha, thanks alot for today Mars ♥
And oh, we met Cherminn today over there too, with her pretty friend named Debbie. Mars says she's jealous, muahahaha. I'm meeting Cherminn again tomorrow again even though she 'treated' me to Sakae 2 days ago. LOL. I hope I can meet her? Or else I'd be bored to tears alone at home, opps.

I wonder how my family members are doing now in Genting. Is my brother bored with my (old) parents? Are they missing me? They haven't called though...I think they should be back by tomorrow night or Sunday morning. Oh well, I guess I'll have to keep myself alive with A math already. So long.

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird.
A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone.
You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are.

You get along well with: The Ring Finger

Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

You Communicate With Your Eyes

When you say, "I'll believe it when I see it" - you really mean it.
For you, what you see is a lot more important than what you hear.
You don't take someone's words at face value. You judge people by their facial expressions, body language, and appearance.
You tend to be quiet, but when you talk, you tend to make eye contact and describe things in colorful detail.

How Do You Communicate?